Imagines

I'm opening up to y'all

Have you ever just seat back and think about shit. Like all the shit you been through, the ups and down and how many times you just felt like given up because things was not going your way😒😒 And you just don't know how to explain yourself to people when they say "what's up with you or what's wrong" ? And you just say "I've just been chilling and to myself" because its so hard to explain shit to people if they never been through depression. And with me I have a depression and bipolar disorder and a sleeping disorder I have to take meds for that I can be very hard to figure out at times. At times I just feel alone and I just keep so much shit inside me like Angry stress etc. It be times I want to just spazz tf out I been dealing with this shit since I was 13 or 14 and now I'm 19. So just imagine keeping so much angry inside of you for so many years. I was very depress I cry every single day to morning before I go to school and when I get out of school I just go in the bathroom and cry for about 2-3 hours I will run water just so people in my house so they think I'm in their taking a shower but I'm really crying the entire time. I cover my mouth so they want hear me cry. I use to pop pills before I go to school. I cute myself 8 times and it hurt but it was my first time every doing that. And when I will be around people I will put in this huge smile and laughing like my life is good but I felt ugly useless and fat I will say a boy will never want me look at me I just have all these negative things about myself. Then January of last year I drop out I was like fuck this fuck school I don't give a shit about myself. And I regret dropping out it like it made me more stress and depress. ( I'm still doing my school just not yet)

Yes I'm a drop out but I'm not encourage you to do it finish your education. And if you did drop out its okay I drop out to baby its nothing stress about you have celebrity's just got they high school diploma ( Mike Epps and Llody) and look at them they success and if they did it I'm sure we can. Do y'all every remember being in school and the teacher ask are we all going to college .when we was all kids we all say we want to go to college until we get up in the upper grade its like a different look. Like I never thought it was gonna be hard. When I get done with school I'm gonna get more into this writing I want to be the number 1 book sold out and I know its not gonna come over night. I want to take care of my back home my everything my mom. My mom is the only person ( I'm about to cry) she believe in me then I didn't believe myself she always tell me forget them and stay strong and keep your head up I want my ma to have everything she don't have to worry about bills none of that I want to take care of my ma like she did for me she is my best friend . I'm just now starting to get close with God to give me strength with everything that I'm dealing with.

I just need to put that out there somebody could go through the same. I need no pitty I just wanted to he real with all my fans that read my book.

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