Stuff and things

Time

It's warm outside, the birds singing, the breeze cool, trees bright green with the beautiful hue of summer.

Times like these, people are outside enjoying themselves, spending time with their families and loved ones.

I am too, currently sitting with my friend hope, eating Nutella and pretzels while on break from
Just dance.

I couldn't ask for a better friend, sticking with me through everything, thick and thin.

But not matter how amazing my day may be,
You'll always pop into my mind, and make the best day i could've had in weeks, the worst.

Most of the time it comes at night. When I'm by myself, alone, scared, lonely.

It's like monsters called despair, fear, and anxiety crawl into my bed, but don't hurt me, no. They sit there and they gnaw at me and chill the very marrow in my bones. You bring these feelings into me.
No,

It isn't you, actually.

It's not being with you. It's being away from you that brings these terrible thoughts into my head that I cannot control and get rid of.

It's in lonely nights like these that the monsters come out to "play"

I miss you.

I miss all we have been through even though it was for a very brief period of time.

But time itself was what helped me catch these feelings for you. However it was also time that turned feelings of wonder, love and care into despair.

I'll always be here.

Waiting,

Hoping that one day you'll understand what I've gone through.