Stuff and things

Say it

Nonstop arguing and fighting, yelling and crying, when will it end?

I realize we've both been going through a lot but is this really worth it?

It's been weeks since we talked, coincidentally the same time we fought.

I don't know what I did wrong, and every part of me wants to figure out how to fix it, but how will I ever know if you don't want to even look at me, never mind talk to me.

You always had something about you that drew me in, and no matter how much I think I'll never find out what it was.

I just want to figure out how to fix things and show you I truly am sorry.

Why is it so hard for me to speak to you?

My words,

The sentences I practiced in my head seem to vanish like leaves in the cool summer breeze.

Stuttering and sobbing I come to you, regret and sadness laced around my head and heart,

Yet you still push me away, without a word you break me down.

Just say it,

Say that you hate me.

I know you do, why is it so hard to just tell me?

Why is it so hard to tell me anything?

Why is it so hard to tell me what's wrong so that we can figure things out?

Why is it so hard

For me to finally find happiness?...