Love Wins (BoyxBoy)

Chpt. 36- The Best Failure Of My Life (Trigger Warning)

~Will Solace~ 

I wake up to find Nico asleep on my chest; I smile and pet his poofy black hair that he never takes the time to comb. I kiss his cheek and hold him close until he wakes up.

"Hullo sunshine." He yawns, holding me tighter.

"Hello angel." I chuckle. All of a sudden a strong pang of guilt hits me; it takes me a couple minutes to realize why. "Nico?" I whisper.

"Yeah?"

"There's something that I have to tell you." I say softly. He looks up at me; I can tell he's scared of what I'm going to say.

"Okay."

"When you were gone I-I might've...sorta...accidentally cut again..."

"Will" He whispers "why..." He asks, hugging me tightly. I take a deep breath and begin to tell him the story of Amy.

~One Moderately Sad Story Later~

"It's all my fault!" I sob loudly.

"No, no Will it isn't your fault. You knew that there wouldn't have been enough time to bring her to the infirmary." He says in a soothing tone, pulling me closer and holding me tighter. "It's not your fault."

"Yes it is! I could've saved her but I didn't even try to." I cry into his shoulder. "It's all my fault..."

"William Solace." He scolds, "What happened that day was not your fault. If anything it was those damn Stoll's fault. Who went into the poison filled cabin to find her?" 

"Me" I whisper.

"Who held her hand and comforted her?"

"Me"

"And who still thinks about her almost like ten years later?"

"Me"

"That's right, you did. No one else had the balls to go back into that cabin until they knew that it was completely clean, no one else held her hand and managed to make her smile as she was leaving, and I bet you no one else still thinks about her. You did nothing wrong Will, so please stop thinking that you did, and please stop punishing yourself for something that you didn't do." He says softly, kissing the top of my head. I sniffle and hug him tightly, not saying anything for a long time.

"I love you." I finally reply.

"I love you more." He hums as he twists a piece of my hair in his boney fingers.

"Nico?"

"Yes, love?"

"I promise that I'll never let anyone or anything hurt you anymore." I say softly. 

"And I, you." He replies, kissing the top of my head again. "It's almost dinner time." He comments, "Wanna head down to the dining pavilion?" 

"Sure." I reply. "Are we going to the fire tonight?"

"Yeah, why not. Let's go." 

~At The Dining Pavilion~ 

I smile as Chase and Leo walk over to our table hand in hand. As they sit down, Nico whispers something about how he's shipped it from the very beginning, causing the couple across from us to blush. 

"You two still happy together?" I tease.

"You still counting down the days 'till you and Nico's big date?" Leo retorts jokingly. 

I see Nico smile and blush out of the corner of my eye; I pull him close and kiss his cheek. He giggles softly and gives me a quick kiss on the lips.