Something Different 🌻

|Disappointments 🍋|

Lucás Jo'Voughn Marshall 🐾

Clover  park 5:30 Pm

I pulled into the park Le'Jani told me to meet her at and seen her sitting on the swings texting on her phone.

I sighed placing the car in park and headed towards her, I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I squated in front of her as she looked up from her phone with a small smile on her face.

"Alright. Talk " I spoke looking into her dark brown eyes.

"Lucas how are you? thanks my day was fine" she said sarcastically.

"I'm sorry, I'm just tryna get straight to the point here"

"I went to the doctor and they confirmed I was pregnant." She paused and cleared her throat, "But not anymore"

"Okay, cause a nigga was sca- wait what you mean not anymore, so you killed my baby Le'Jani!" I yelped turing red, even though I wasn't ready for a child I still didn't believe in abortion.

"I ain't kill our baby bro I miscarried a couple days after I found out." She cried, "I'm sorry I didn't mean for this to happen. It's out my control"

I sighed standing up pacing the park, I was mad and upset all at once.

I pulled Le'Jani in for a hug while rubbing her back as she cried on my chest.

{Le'jani above }
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I finally left after Le'Jani's ride showed up. I sighed heavily once again and dialed Niy's number as I drove home.

"Hello" she answered, I began explaining everything to her that happened.

"Oh my gosh Lucas. you need any company or anything? I'll listen to you vent" she suggested

I shook my head as if she could see me, "Nah I'm cool I just need time to actually process this alone. Thanks for being here, I appreciate you" I smiled small entering my crib.

"No problem, call me when you can" she hung up.

I lied across the bed, rolled over to my drawer and pulled out a already rolled blunt and lit it, I took a long pull and turned my speakers on blasting my nigga drake. I needed to be alone and in my feelings at the moment. I spent my whole night doing exactly that.

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10:35 Am Lucky's home

"Lucky, get up boy" Mama yelled slapping my bare chest. I leaned up rubbing my eyes, all I remember was smoking four fat ass blunts and passing out for the night

"Yea mama" I mumbled remembering yesterday's events. "Why my god damn house smell like weed!"

I sighed knowing I forgot to open a window last night. "Sorry, i'm not in the mood for this yelling I won't do it again"

She slapped my head "I don't give a damn what mood you in, and I know you won't do this shit again. I'm only looking out for you, you can't be out here smoking weed when it's football season alright?" she sighed

"Yea ma" I know she was right. Football is the only thing I'm good at, it's my passion and this smoking shit will only slow me down on the field. I missed the first practice because I didn't know about it until after school and it was too late, but I will be at the second practice for sure.

She nodded, "now get up I cooked breakfast, hurry up and get ready because you're late for school" she said before walking out

11:56 a.m.Malcom High

I strolled through the school doors. it was unfortunately lunch hour and I really don't feel like surrounding myself with anybody. I don't feel like explaning to my niggas why I'm down when they not gone understand.

I walked slowly down the halls and to my next class, I plugged in my purple Beat headphones and put down my head. I was forced to be here obviously, Mama don't play when it comes to school and my grades. She wants me to become something and do better than she did.

She was a teen mom, she had me when she was 18, she graduated High school but never got to go to college.

I felt a constant tap on my shoulder, "What the fuck you want " I mumbled not bothering to see who it was.

"Well fuck you too. I was just tryna be a good friend "

I sat up and instantly smiled small, "My bad Niy you know I'm not in the best mood after That ..." I trailed off

"Yea I know, That's why I came to check up on you. I texted you this morning before school and you never replied. I stepped out to call you in the bathroom and I seen you in here, how you feeling ? " she asked sitting beside me

"I'll be alright. How you and big Homie doin'?" I questioned

"we're cool, just taking things slow. We wanna do this the right way" she smiles, I can tell she was really feeling him and if she was happy, So was I.

"That's good, all I know is you better not be out here acting grown cause I'll beat both y'all asses "

"Says who nigga ? I know you remember all those times I use to beat that ass" she smirked hopping on my desk by me.

"Oh so you did remember huh?" "well I do now how could I forget my first best Friend" she playfully pushed my arm.

"Yea, I know nobody can forget a nigga like me" I smiled popping my collar.

"you swear, ole cocky ass. you wasn't that nigga back then though" she laughs pulling out a old ass picture of me and her on the swing set of my backyard, I had on this raggedy ass shirt that was too big with these long ass shorts and no socks. my hair was down to my shoulders and I was missing both my front teeth as I smiled big for whoever took the picture.

"you got jokes I see. you wasn't the best looking ya' self" I smiled reminiscing, "I wish times were still that simple, when we didn't have shit to worry bout but toys and cartoons"

She nods, "you and me both, getting older ain't where it's at" we sat in comfortable silence for a second.

"What y'all niggas in here doin ? " Jrey strolls in with a raised eyebrow "Chillin' my nigga" I laugh, the bell rang loud as hell interrupting me.

"well, I better head to class y'all behave" Niy stands hugging me then kissing Jrey.

I frowned and turned my head as they got into it. These niggas nasty as hell, they don't care who be watching.

"Y'all get the hell on with that my eyes burn" eventually jrey sat down in his assigned seat and Niy left for her class as other students began pouring in.

I sighed and placed my beats back on and laid my head on the desk blocking out my surroundings.