A/N: The hardest desision ever...to pick between two awesome guys...the one who never left, abd the one who you love that made a mistake but regrets it so much ughhh T^T
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It's been two hours since the incident with block be passed and i was in ukwons room curled up in a ball but decided to sit up as i alittle better, i fixed myself quickly and opened the door but was practically blinded by the lighted hallway every inch of the house seemed to be lit whats more odd was the wall infront of ukwons bedroom had post it's and it trailed downstairs, and in every post it i passsed i couldnt help but smile at what ukwon wrote on each
"Yumiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii <3"
"It's okay to cry in front of me, I'll never leave your side until i can see you finally being able to stand up and smile like nothing happened"
"Never forget you have a handsome/cute bestfriend here that will be there for you"
"Whatever problem you have i'll help you solve it...like in highschool...cramps...remember junior year? >:D"
"" If i had a flower for every time you make me smile I'd have a garden i can walk in forever""(found this on my i touch and i couldn't resist but put it here XD)
"Your pretty if you go out after you've just woken up!... just don't approach and talk to people closely. ahahah >:D"
"Someday everything will make perfect sense to why it happened ;D"
"Hahaha ain't sweet?? even i can't stand it... I'm sweet right?! HAHAHA"
i laughed as i continued smiling a little but i felt something drop from the pits of my stomach causing me get nervous and worried for some unknown reason, i read the following notes gulping as i read each
"Ya Yumi...Why can't you see?"
"Can't you forget that person that hurt you this bad...and just see the person that liked you for so long and that person never left your side"
"everything started to change every love song suddenly reminded me of someone...someone i shouldn't think of in a romantic way"
"I tried to avoid ending up doing this... i don't want our friendship to end..."
"I'll let music express how i feel follow the arrow"
i looked at the final step of the arrow and saw it pointing at the living room, and there was ukwon sitting while holding his acoustic guitar on the coach, that was positioned in the middle facing where i came from and all the other coach and coffee table was at the corner of the living room, i started walking a little closer but stopped and listened as he started playing
Now playing:Best friend (On the side ;) )♫♪♫"Do you remember when I said I'd always be there.
Ever since we were ten, baby.
When we were out on the playground playing pretend.
Didn't know it back then. "
i continued to watch him with a smile as he started singing he looked like he really felt the song he's singing and the fact he really promised me that he'd always be there made me smile
♫♪♫"Now I realize you were the only one
It's never too late to show it.
Grow old together,
Have feelings we had before
Back when we were so innocent"
I stared at him as my eyes widen as he continued singing he kept his gaze at me, and the way he sang the song like it was a message... i gripped the hem of my shirt as he reached the chorus
♫♪♫"I pray for all your love
Girl our love is so unreal
I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you, somebody pinch me
This is something like a movie
And I dont know how it ends girl
but I fell in love with my Best Friend"
My heart started to beat fast as he stood up leaving his guitar on the coach approaching me and continued singing as he kept his stare at me
♫♪♫"Through all the dudes that came by
And all the nights that you'd cry.
I was there right by your side.
How could I tell you I loved you
When you were so happy
With some other guy?"
He continued as his gaze started to turn into sadness, but he tried to smile as he sang
♫♪♫"Now I realize you were the only one
It's never too late to show it.
Grow old together,
Have feelings we had before
When we were so innocent."
Flashbacks started to come at me as he continued,
♫♪♫"I know it sounds crazy
That you'd be my baby.
But you mean that much to me."
the way we always done sleep over's at each others houses, how he would comfort me when my high school crush got a girlfriend, how he took care of me when i was sick and my mom was away
, how we always cut classes and go to our favorite ice cream store, and how he'd watch one piece with me even though he called it childish at first
♫♪♫"But I don't wanna ruin what we have
Love is so unpredictable."
He placed his hand on my cheek and rubbed it a little but let go as he turned around but continued
♫♪♫"But it's the risk that I'm taking,
Hoping, praying
You'd fall in love with your best friend"
my breath started to hitch as he twirled around but with a much more serious look he stood closely infront of me as he finished the song
♫♪♫"I remember when I said I'd always be there
Ever since we were ten.
When we were out in the sandbox [playground] playing pretend.
Didn't know it back then..."
i gave him a smile but it surely looked strained, i tried to erase whatever thought i have in my mind... it can't be, right? it's impossible...yeah it's impossible... i pushed the tought unto the back of my mind...since it's really not possible for him to... just thinking about it makes me go crazy with questions...
i stared back at ukwon who looked at me he bit his lower lip as he cursed under his breath, and he suddenly hugged me tight, my eyes widen by his action
""Kwonnie..a-are you o-okay?" i asked shaking as i tried to push him off gently, but he still had his face on the crook of my neck feeling how he breathed deeply as if trying to calm himself up, he hugged me tightly as he didn't budge even a little as i tried to push him off, i started to get uncomfortable as i pushed him a little harder
he moved away a little but his hands where still around my waist, as he looked at me with a pained look,
no please it can't be right?
"Yumi...seeing you so fragile and broken that day you came here... do you have any idea whats it doing to me?"" he said as he stared at me his face seemed to get closer,
"Ukwo-"
"I'm sorry but i just can't stop myself anymore" he stared at my eyes as he pulled me closer to him his lips crashed unto mine gently, his eyes were shut tightly as i stood there frozen and my mind went blank for a few seconds, i felt how he tightened his hold like i'll soon be slipping away from him...forever.... at the same time a tear dropped from both of our eyes...
the thoughts i tried to erase started to push there way thru
No way...this can't be... tears started to fall more as i finally realized...
I couldn't lie to myself anymore about everything that just happened...
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I'll treat you better next time(Block B Fanfic)
Fanfic[ENGLISH] I only wanted for our relationship to be perfect its almost 4 years... Was it bad that i always expected it to be a perfect a no problem relationship...? .... Was my decision to rash? Because of what i did will it ruin everything? My rela...
