Losing Him

Beaten Down Ben

Chapter 13

Beaten Down Ben

It was a mistake and all the voices in Savannah's head were screaming in objection but her body wasn't listening.

Her lip stung as they pressed on to Leon's soft pillowy lips.

Savannah pulled away quickly, she felt weak, incapable of controlling her impulses and devastated, she stared at Leon as he stared back in an expression that was frustratingly hard to read.

This was the end of their thirteen-year long friendship and she provoked it, thought Savannah as the reality of what she had done came crashing down on her.

She was in disbelief, how could she be so foolish? and why was she behaving so recklessly?

Leon sighed and looked onto the grass,

"Now, that's out of the way, could you please tell me why you're covered in bumps and bruises and what happened to your lip?" he said, unbothered by the kiss they just shared.

Savannah let out a breath she didn't know she was holding, she was beyond confused, she didn't know how he would react to the kiss, but no reaction from Leon hadn't even crossed her mind.

"Kissing me, although I don't mind it, won't distract me from this..." stated Leon.

Savannah was feeling so run down. She was at a loss, her emotions are all over the place and she doesn't have any answers to anything.

She was completely out of touch, she never felt more of a stranger to herself than at this moment.

Savannah didn't feel like herself, but she felt like a parasite, taking over the body of the girl she used to think she was.

"Calm down," assured Leon, taking notice of Savannah's unusual behaviour which she no doubt projected onto her face.

"Just clear your mind, and think about nothing else except what's happening right here, right now and what happened," Leon spoke clearly and calmly, drowning out the chaos in Savannah's mind.

She didn't want to speak about it or re-live it, but she knew she had to, so she could be able to move on, her main objective since that night.

She took a deep breath and locked eyes with Leon,

"Mike and I, had a... disagreement, last Friday night and things got a little... physical," confessed Savannah.

Leon stared at her stone-faced without blinking, Savannah could see a glint of fury in his eyes. He nostrils flared, he looked as if he was either about to cry or go on a rampage.

"Have you told anybody?" he asked exhaustedly,

"no Leon, and it's better that way, Mum and Dad don't want to believe their precious first-born son is a psychopath," protested Savannah,

"so what did you tell them?" asked Leon coming off angrier than he would've liked.

"I told them I fell off this tree," Savannah said flatly, she stood by what she did.

Leon stared at her than scoffed covering his face with his hands.

"Savannah look what he did to you!-"

"I know what he did to me Lee!" Savannah retorted defensively as her voice broke, she didn't realise the lump in her throat until now as warm tears dripped down her face.