Losing Him

Don't Think, Just Drink

Chapter Fourteen

Don't Think, Just Drink

Savannah woke up the next day, feeling like she never really fell asleep.

She was unsure whether or not to tell someone about what she had seen, she saw no point in adding fuel to the fire.

She contemplated taking matters into her own hands and confronting Ben herself, one-on-one so he doesn't feel attacked or like the culprit in an intervention.

That morning she got dressed absentmindedly, rehearsing the speech she was going to give Ben.

Just as she was about to make her way out of her room to find Ben, he burst into her room carefully shutting the door behind him.

Savannah was startled, searching her mind to figure out what to say, but she seemed incapable of forming together the right words.

"Savannah I need to talk to you," said Ben carefully, before Savannah could speak, "I know you saw me last night... after dinner..." he said.

Savannah didn't want to deny it or act oblivious so she carefully nodded her head, her eyes locked with his.

Ben came closer and it wasn't until now that Savannah had realised that Ben had quite the growth spurt.

She was looking up at him instead of looking at him directly in the eyes. Where did the time go?

When did her little brother turn into the young man before her?

Ben looked well rested but still as if something was bothering him, obviously something was.

The only thing that always remained consistent was his curly brown hair draping down his face and dangling down his forehead.

Savannah hadn't noticed until now how much her and Ben looked alike, she saw more of herself in him than she saw in Michael.

"Savannah I don't want you to worry, I'm not getting bullied or beaten or anything of that nature so please don't worry..."

"I can't tell you what this is about... just yet... but I'm just going to need you to trust me on this..." he said before Savannah could speak.

"Ben, if you seriously think I'm not going to worry about you being battered and bruised just because you told me so, you're highly mistaken!" spoke Savannah defensively.

"Shhhh!" exclaimed Ben before looking around, why was he being so secretive?

Savannah stared at him questioningly.

"Don't worry, I've already spoken to Dad and he's helping me with it..."

Savannah breathed a sigh f relief,

"but Savan, I'm sorry I just can't tell you what it is, I'm not ready for everyone to know just yet... Dad knowing alone feels like too much... but trust that I'm okay and in time everything else will be..."

Savannah was quiet trying to form an opinion as Ben stared at her begging with his eyes. She tried to form an argument but she couldn't.

The truth was, knowing that Ben was okay was the only thing she needed, and she got that.

She didn't understand what was going on but she understood that it meant a great deal to Ben to keep it quiet for now.

She let out a defeated sigh, "knowing that you're okay Ben is all I need... but just take it easy yeah?"