Things Fall Apart {Haylor}

Chapter 33

TAYLOR'S POV

"Hi Taylor and Harry..welcome back. Please take a seat."

Chelsea smiled and waved at the both of us. Ugh I can't believe I agreed to come back here. I hid my face behind Harry's shoulder and kept quiet. The voices were acting up again and I hated them.

You're such a burden Taylor.

"Harry.."

I whimpered, tears welling up in my eyes. He held onto my hand and cupped my cheek.

"What's wrong princess?"

"M- make them s- stop..."

Chelsea was quietly observing my behavior. I wanted to stop crying but my body wouldn't let me.

"Taylor, honey...make what stop?"

I heard Chlesea ask.

"The v- voices..."

Why did you open your mouth stupid. Now she knows about me.

"Do they haunt you constantly?"

I nodded slightly. My heart was beating faster and faster. Chelsea wrote stuff down and looked back up at me.

"What do they say to you?"

She continued to pry answers out of me. A part of me wanted to get it out of my chest, to finally have someone know my struggles. But another part of me was insecure and scared.

"T- they..."

Shut your fucking mouth Taylor. Don't tell her. She'll think you're crazy.

I closed my mouth and bit on my lip. I couldn't tell her.

"Taylor...you can tell me. The voices aren't real."

"T- they..tell me to d- do stuff that I don't want to do.."

I say, tears flowing down my face. The voices were going to torture me after this. I just knew it.

"What stuff?"

"C- cut...purge..and..a- and.."

My head lowered slightly, ashamed of myself. But I still had one more thing to say.

No. Shut up Taylor.

No. You shut up. I need to tell her.

Don't say anything, stupid. She already thinks you're crazy enough. Harry's going to leave you eventually too.

I have to say it!

No you don't!

I'll be killing myself if I keep listening to you!

We were shouting back and forth. I felt like I had to shout in order for someone to hear what I say.

"Taylor are you alri-"

"AND J- JUMP! I...I didn't want...to j- jump off the roof. But t- they kept forcing m- me..."

I cut her off by exclaiming. The whole room was silent. Harry was rubbing my back slowly trying to calm me down. I sobbed into his chest. Why was my life so tough. I never seem to do things right.

"Shh...you're alright."

Harry cooed in my ear, wrapping his arms around my body.

"Don't think about the voices okay Taylor? Just focus on mine."

Chelsea said with a smile. I hiccuped and nodded.

"Forget about the voices for a second. Let's talk about yesterday's session. Remember when you said you were afraid of men?"