Clean [kim mingyu]

07

warning: sad chapter aka flashback. mention of rape, so read at your discretion.

suri walked in, her eyes half opened from oversleeping. she collasped on her desk with a loud thud, gaining some stares from her classmates. turned out that after she hung up with mingyu, she didn't sleep right away and stared at her ceiling, thinking about the boy that made look at the world differently. she turned to the side, stared out the large window of her room and thought about what her life was like before it happened.

+

it was christmas and the entire lee family was reunited at suri's house. she was the youngest child in the house, and felt out of place with her ginger hair full of volume, her colored eyes and her green dress. seojoon and their older cousins were playing hide and seek on the second floor, while she was sitting in her room, a teddy bear in her small hands. even though she was almost thirteen, the teddy bear was for her a source of comfort.

"suri, honey. dinner is ready." she lifted her head and smiled at her mother, humming. she let go of her stuffed animal and stood up.

it couldn't have been more awkward than this. the adults were chatting with each other while the children were too busy fulling their mouths with the food at their disposition. suri, her, was silently eating a piece of chicken seojoon have put in her small bowl, watching her family happily interacting. a tiny smile formed on her lips. "is it that good?" she nodded at her mother who chuckled at her cute reaction.

when everyone finally either went home or went to sleep in the basement — because it was the only place where seven children and four adults could fit on the floor — it was also the girl's time to go sleep.

"suri..." the girl, half-asleep, thought it was her mother who came to check on her, but when she felt a hand on her back, she knew it wasn't her. the touch was different. it was rough and dry. her mother wasn't the kind to just grip her shirt or pat her back directly under her shirt. "so soft, so smooth... and so pale." slowly, the hand went lower and lower, ending in her underwear. "so innocent." suri felt tears brim in her eyes, but she didn't dare say a word. she only held her teddy bear tighter and sucked in a breath, scared that she'd be caught.

rough fingers cupped her between her short legs, making her body freeze. the older woman moaned, grinding her bottom onto suri's leg. then, the girl felt like she was being ripped like a piece of paper. tears fell down and sobs were heard across the room. "it's okay baby girl. it won't hurt anymore."

it didn't stop hurting. it only hurt more and more... more tears and blood were spilled. but no words of the incident came out.

+

"are you crying?" a voice caught her off-guard, making her flinch. she looked up and saw how mingyu was worriedly staring at her. "what's wrong?" she didn't notice she was sweating until the boy pushed her bang away to check her temperature. "your temperature seems fine though."