Roommates

Chapter {24} - It's official... I'm Dead!

DYLAN'S POV:

"I love you, you should know that." I confessed. It was time for me to tell her. And I'm glad I did. She was acting all strange around me and she was like forcing herself to hate me. Just like me, forcing myself to hold it around her and keep on control. But every time I see her, I got these feelings that I can't stop. I feel like my heart is a lion that I need to domesticate. But no matter how hard I try, he's just so dangerous and wild and I can't do anything. I just fell in love with her so deeply and it sometimes frustrates me.

I never wanted to find love, in fact, I never believed in it. How did I love her when I thought that love never exists? But now, after all of this, when I look into her eyes I know that I have found the right thing. It's just so weird that I was mocking every thing that has a common in love and now all I know and need is love. She changed me, she has my heart in her hands and she played with it like a game.

But all I can think about is that she's worth it. She deserve the perfect life, can I give it to her? I don't think I'm good for her, she deserves better, she's too good for me.

"Oh really, since when?" She teased, but she looked nervous and shy, like she doesn't know what's happening.

Oh believe me, neither did I.

"Since we had this deep talk in the forest and then we met that badass." I said easily, I didn't even need to think about it. I knew I was into her ever since she talked about herself, about how she feels and needs. I knew I loved her when I couldn't handle the fact that Alex was going to lay a hand on her, when I wanted to protect her and wanted her to be forever mine.

I wish she can know everything but I'm not so good in these things.

My hand found her way toward her waist and I pulled her closer to me, I tucked a couple of her blonde hair behind her ear and leaned in before I kissed her soft cheek. Then I leaned closer to her ear whispering "you're so dangerous."

I felt her beating heart on my chest and I knew she was so nervous, I saw her lips curls up into a small shy smile and put my thumb on them, sensing their softness and flawless. How can she be that much perfect?

"Dylan, I- I don't know what to think." She said and looked down.

I put my fingers on her chin, forcing her to look at me. "Kiara, I promise I would never hurt you. I love you. I love you so fucking much. And every day I wish I could have you in my arms, I want you, not just your body, Kiara believe me,I've changed. And I know you think that: why did I date Nita if I'm saying that I felt for you since before. But everything that I did was just to keep my mind off of you. I was forcing myself to stop thinking about you and I was denying my feelings. And I know that you were too. But now, Kiara, everything is different. You've changed my life. You've changed me."

I looked into her eyes, they were troubled. She looked confused and worried. Like she was scared of believing me, and I don't blame her. I can't blame her. Because I was a jerk. But the thing is that I was.

I grabbed her waist, pulling her closer to my body. I looked into her eyes, those beautiful magical eyes, then I looked at her lips, biting my lips wondering about what it will taste like to bite hers. I looked back at her eyes again, grabbing her face gently. And then, I slowly leaned in and kissed her.

In a matter of time, that kiss turned into a strong passionate, full of lust kiss and I couldn't keep my hands away from her. I found myself slamming her on the wall and kissing every inch of her face, neck, and shoulder. She was like a drug and I got addicted. Her skin, I can never get enough from kissing it. I then, went back and kissed her face, then I bit her earlobe.

My hand flew under her shirt and I rubbed her back, she had her fingers in my hair, messing it. I loved it. She was moaning as I kissed her and I wanted more.

I leaded her toward her room, not breaking the kiss. I took off her shirt and pushed her onto the bed. I trailed my lips down her neck, collarbone, then her belly. And I was about to untie her bra when she put her hand on mine, making me stop.

I broke the kiss and looked at her under me, she had her apologize look in her eyes. Fuck.

"I'm ... I'm sorry. But I'm not ready yet." She stuttered and I backed away as she sat on the bed.

I stood up and turned my back, I can't look at her after I did that, now I would seem like I just want her body.

"No, Kiara. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to..." she cut me off by kissing my lips and then she put two fingers on them.

When did she walk toward me?

I looked at her eyes, mad at myself because of what I did. "Maybe I don't deserve you."

"Hey, hey. Don't ever say that again, Dylan. I'm so glad that I've found you and I do believe you. A lot. And I know you, so much more than you even think." She said as she rubbed my cheek.

"I love you." She mumbled.

I smiled, took her head in my palms and kissed her forehead before I walked toward the door.

"Don't you wanna cuddle with me?" Her voice buzzed in my head, making me stop in my tray. I turned around to face her, she had this puppy cute face and her cheeks were red like a tomato. I chuckled and then ran toward her, picking her bridal style and putting her on her bed. She was laughing so hard that it made me laugh.

And to hear her laughter more, I began tickling her. "Dylan... stop!! Please!" She said between her laughs. I smiled and said "and what do I get if I stopped?"

"A... k.. kiss." She chuckled and tried to escape my tickling.

"Fine I lose." I said putting my hands up in defeat and leaned closed to her as she pecked my lips.

"Oh really? That's it?" I teased, acting hurt.

"Yep."

I held her in my arms and leaned in the bed beside her, she put her head on my chest and I began running my hand in her soft hair. She pulled herself closer to me and put her palm on my chest. My heart was beating fast and I bet she could feel it.

It's official... I'm dead!