C H A P T E R : F O U R T E E N
Caden's POV
It's been months since I have spoken to my parents or in that fact, my mother. Last thing I remember doing was gathering my things, and leaving her a note. I didn't tell her where I was going, or why I left ... She would figure that out for herself. Most importantly I wonder why she never reached out to me. Even though I felt like most of her heart and time was towards my dad, she would always tell me how much she cared about both of us.
Counseling
I never thought I would be in this place in my life. I was going to counseling; counseling is for people who have problems in their life. I do have problems in my life, but not the type of problem that I needed to go out and ask people for help with. I'm not one for talking about my problems, I just found a way to deal with them and move on. Doctor John said it would be good for me, he said I go just to see how it is, he also said that I didn't have to talk or share my story... that I could just go in to listen.
I walk into the room and every ones seated and the counselor is at a desk and he greets me when I walk in. I also noticed that the counselor is also, Pastor Jeff, from that church Kaysly took me to almost 2 years ago.
"Hello, Caden, so glad of you to join us, you can take a seat where ever you like ..." He stands up to hand me a packet, and the first page, titled 'Growing Pain.'
I took a seat in the back row a few seats in the middle away from every one.
"Before we begin I have someone here today, that has attended this course for a while who would like to finally share their story with us today." He announced to everyone.
A girl in the second row stands up in front of everyone; with her shoulders pushed back, and her head held up high. Her hair is strawberry blonde and she has some freckles on her face. She starts to speak and it all starts coming back to me....
She's the cheerleader that I found lying beside me when I woke up at Richards's house; same day I found out he died. What is she doing here? I thought to myself. I wonder if she remembers who I am. The thought made me stiff. Now I seriously don't want to be here, I can't be some jerk and act like nothing happened. I know I have done it almost all my life, but not now when I am in the process of changing.
"Hi, I'm Chelsea." Her voice sounded a little hoarse as she stood in front of everyone stiffly. She paused for a longtime before continuing and her head is faced down so that no one could see her face. After a while I could hear her breathing deeply, that made me harden at this point. I feel as if my heart has been ripped out of my chest. I felt guilty, watching her helplessly up there.
"Take your time Chelsea; the first time is always hard." Pastor Jeff said.She wiped her tears before picking up her head.
"A few years ago, during my high school years, a couple of my friends were convincing me that I should go to this party ....I felt like I was being pressured to do something I didn't want to do, but I thought since all of my friends are doing it why shouldn't I? It was going to happen eventually--" More tear's started spilling down her face, she than cleared her throat to continue.
Kaysly's POV
I actually knew Hayley for some time, she was Pastor Jeff's daughter and I would see her every church service in the front row with her mother. She attended a different high school than I did, and we surprisingly became roommates. She's been trying to cheer me up after the big brawl that I had with Caden and Matthew. She still doesn't know what happened between us three, but she is trying to get it out of me.
It was 7 o'clock at night and we were watching the movie Fireproof. She convinced me to get into my pajamas, while she set us up some ice cream for the movie. It was a really great movie.Tthe beginning was pretty intense with a inspiring message, and happy ending. It was a typical situation about how couples have trouble during their marriage, but it was like you could feel how they felt during the movie.
After the movie I was completely stuffed with ice cream and very tired.
"Are you ready to talk?" Hayley asked as she went back to the kitchen to put our ice cream blows in the dishwasher.
I was still in the living room and I lay flat on my back while staring up at the ceiling after having to sit up during the movie. Once she was done, she grabbed a pillow cushion and sat beside me. I explained everything to her. I explained how I felt God was calling upon me to help Caden know what Christ has done for him. I also explained how it suddenly became more than I attended it to be, and I lost control of my emotions. How everything became too much and it all slipped out from under me. I told her that after telling Matthew about it he ended our relationship, and how I wondered if all along, he knew it in his heart that I liked Caden more than a friend.
