Jack Gilinsky's sister

Seventeen

Matts Pov-

I gasped for air and saw all the guys around me except Gillinsky. I noticed Hayes crying in the back, shaking his head in disapproval.

"Aye your awake!!" Carter yelled

"Oh my gosh Matt are you ok?" Nash looked at me concerned

"Yeah yeah, what happened is Nicole ok?"

The guys all looked at each other

"You fainted, and had a panic attack but your ok!" Cameron said as he stood next to Nash

"And Nicole?" Nash and Cameron's head went down

"She's barely make it through." Taylor said noticing that the other guys wouldn't tell me.

"I need to see her!" I stood up but got a headache

"Woah there slow down. No one can see her but family." Carter said

I looked at Hayes and got angry. It's all his fault, it's his fault that my angel is in the hospital close to dying.

"Sometimes it all gets a little to much, but you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up. And you don't have to be afraid because we're all the same but you know that sometimes it all gets a little to much." Shawn sang out no where.

We all looked at him as he continued his song. He must have just written this or something but it's really good. As soon as Shawn finished we all clapped, "GOOD JOB SHAWN!!" Aaron said

We got glares from other people in the waiting room and some Shushed us.

"It just came to me." Shawn whispered

"Did you guys like it?" He added

"Yes!!" We all tried whispering but it was still loud

I looked at Hayes and he was still crying so I walked up to him.

"Hey Hayes." He was startled but didn't look up

"How you holding up?" I sat next to him and placed my hand on his back

"It's all my fault." He kept murmuring to himself but I could hear him

"What happened?"

"I let her get shot. I watched her get shot. I should have helped her. I should have been next to her. I..." He broke down into tears

"Shhhh.... It's ok Hayes." I patted his back but looked at the floor imagining what probably happened and got a little carried away.

"Matt! STOP!!!" Hayes yelled

I was on top of Hayes on the floor, punching the crap out of him.

"What?" Nash and Aaron pulled me back

"What is wrong with you Matt?" Nash pushed me back on the wall

"He could have saved her. He's the fucking reason why she's dead. It's his fucking ignorant fault!! I knew he would do this." I broke down and Nash hugged me

"It's ok Matt calm down she ok.. Everything will be ok Matt."

"No it won't." I cried into Nash's shirt

*3:00am*

"Nicole Gillinsky's family?" The nurse called in

"Yeah!" We all stood up but Aaron since he feel asleep.

"You are allowed to go in but three at a time not including the one that is already in there."

"Matt go in." Shawn said

"Let's go Matt." Nash said with Cameron on the other side of me

We walked in and my heart broke

She was so pale and tubs where everywhere. Jack was sitting in a chair moved to be sitting right next to her. He was crying and holding her hand. Once he saw us he stood up.

"what did the doctor say?" Cam asked

"She's unconscious, but her wound is set to heal. Guys she might make it." He smiled

"Can I have a moment with her?" I asked

All three guys left and waiting outside, I walked and sat where jack was sitting earlier. I grabbed her hand and kissed it.

" Nicole, i know you might not hear this but, I miss you. And I know you know how I feel but you don't know everything. I'm totally in love with you Nicole, I love the way you laugh, the way you get dimples when you smile or when you get a light in your eyes when something makes you happy. I love the way you think your not attractive but trust me honey, you got all of us under your spell. I want you to be the one to walk down the aisle while I wait for you and cry my eyes out on how beautiful you are and wonder 'how did I get to deserve her?' I want to have kids with you and grow old with you. Every time I hear your name or voice I grow a smile on my face and it makes my day. And the thought that you will never think of me the way I think of you, kills me everyday. I'm so in love with you but I'm getting use to the fact that I'm never going to be good enough for you. Each night I put my head on my pillow and I tell myself to stay strong because I've gone another day without you. It's hard to pretend you don't love someone when your head over heels for them. I will always care for you, even if we're not together and even if we're far far away from each other. Nicole I have a question, Are you happy? You broke me. You let me drown when you promised me you wouldn't,Don't you remember? I thought you would put it in mind, I thought...... You were different. I was wrong. But just know I'll never give up you, I'll keep trying till the day I die."

I couldn't stop crying, I kissed her hand one more time and got up. I looked at her fragile face and got the nerve to kiss her cheek.

"Bye Nicole. I love you, till the last number in the universe."

Hello people!!

So Matthews speech. Wow. I needed a little help so I'd like to thank my source. Um so I'm still deciding who Nicole should end up with so please comment on who you guys think should end up with Nicole.

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mine sucks :( but I mean it's good I get sleep!

-Nat❤️