16 & pregnant

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*Bethany's P.O.V*

"Get your asses up and out of my house, we're going to the park." I yelled throughout the apartment. Holly turned and sighed while Cameron just stared at me. "Sorry do I have something on my face." I sarcastically smiled. "Get the fuck up." I went back to my frown. They all stopped looking at me and got up. I kept the door open for them as they walked out and I followed behind them. We made our way in awkward and uncomfortable silence to the park.

I watch as Cameron and Kimberly walked hand in hand in front of me. As much as I hate his ass, I'm glad my daughter met her father, even if he's the top douche of douche town. We arrived at the park and Kimberly and Cameron ran somewhere to play while Holly went to buy us snacks. I sat on the swings and just watched the whole park. I don't know why this happens to be, but I could be sitting somewhere and this overwhelming rush of sadness just hits me.

I could be doing something completely normal and I could feel it. My heart seems to beat slower and my chest feels heavy. My eyes seem to water every hour and feel like heavy weights on my face. My body seems more tense and more in pain. It feels like I'm going to break down crying any moment.  Don't know if it's because Cameron's back and everything seems to be coming at me all at once. Every single painful memory.

New neighbors moving across the street.

Regretful teenage cliche party.

Positive pink plus waving hello.

Crying for an eternity only for a kind soul to reach out for help.

Falling deeply in love almost enough to fill up the marina trench.

Only to have a boy rip a girls hearts into shreds.

Crying into a deep hole of darkness.

A mother loses her baby.

Things start to look up.

A mother gives birth to her daughter.

Her life gets torn apart again.

A daughter loses her mother from cancer.

Barley surveying, she almost gets raped.

Life seems to be over for the young mother.

She decides maybe life will be better without her.

But yet again she survives.

Life hates her but doesn't want her dead.

The young mother decides to get her shit together and fuck life up.

She was doing well for a couple years.

Until heartbreak came walking through her door.

Now she just feels empty.

Like she's sixteen again.

I wipe the tears from my eyes. Why are you crying Bethany. Stop fucking crying. You didn't build yourself up just for a mother fucker to tear you down again. Cmon Bethany. Stop fucking crying! Sixteen year old Bethany couldn't handle it. But you can, so wipe those fucking tears Bethany. Don't hurt yourself. Not again. I looked up and saw Cameron. I wiped the final tear from my eye and whispered, "you promised you wouldn't leave."

•A/N•

short chappptterrr
idk this chapter just came out of my head and my emotions

i love jah (X) & feel like the song goes perfectly