One chance

Chapter 48

Toni
Three weeks later

      Cleaning up around the room jay was on the bed, laid on his stomach.

" baby I think you should get some pregnancy tests". His head popped up.

  " you sure this time? Because last time...".

" I just wanna if I'm pregnant or not". He nodded and got up to get dressed.

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" I'm bout to leave baby".

" alright". He kissed me and went downstairs.

  The last test I took said I wasn't pregnant, this is something we both want and I'm nervous that it won't happen.

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      Waiting for jay to come back from the store I was nervous, scared, and tired. We've been trying to have a baby for a while now and nothing's happened. Hearing the door close I waited for Jordan and he came in the room with a bag in his hand.

   He emptied out the bag and he bought almost 15 boxes of pregnancy tests.

" jay you didn't have to buy all of these". I looked up at him and he was nervous.

" I didn't know what to get so I bought a couple..or more", grabbed some I went to the bathroom and took one out of the three boxes I had. 

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  My hands shaking I sat on the edge of the tub as jay read the pregnancy tests.

" one line is negative, two lines are positive". He sighed and looked at me.

" it has one line baby, I'm sorry". Wiping my tears I shook my head.

" jay read the other ones". He looked at them and kept his head down.

" they all have one line on them Marie". Getting up, he grabbed me and wrapped his arms around me.

" let me go!". I said with tears streaming down my face.

" baby stop..calm down".

" calm down? This is the second time". I said as he rubbed my back.

" Toni..".

" no! You know how much it hurts me to tell you that I possibly can't have your baby".  I moved his arms from me waist and I went back into the bedroom.

" it hurts me too!". I shook my head and grabbed a bag throwing clothes in it. " what are you doing?".

" I can't be here right now, it breaks my heart every time I tell you that I'm not pregnant!". Every time I looked at him I thought about not being able to have his baby.

" you leaving?".

Jordan

What she said kept replaying in my head. It was like I was stuck, I turned my head and she was walking down the stairs. Before I could reach her she left.

      I stood there like a dumb ass and let my everything leave.  I already knew how she felt about this but I didn't think she would leave me.  Going back in the house I called her phone and she didn't answer.

  Toni

  I didn't know where I was going but I had to leave that house, I couldn't look Jordan in the face knowing that I couldn't give him the one thing he wanted.

   Calling ms. Sherrie, I hoped that she answers

" hello?".

" hey ms.sherrie i was hoping to talk to you".

" Jordan just called me. He said that you left. What's going on?".

    I told her what happened and she sighed.

" I know what you're going through but you guys have to be together at times like this". 

" I can't look at him knowing I can't get pregnant".

" you don't know that yet, it takes time for some people"

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