The Chronicles Of An Insomniac Pakistani Teenager

New Beginnings, Old Endings

June 07, 2016

I never thought I'd be writing on this again. Two years of A levels has left me exhausted. I'm glad to be finally free of giving any more Cambridge exams. Only have to give 4 years of University exams now. Great, I'm sure it'll be oodles of fun. 

Though, sarcasm aside; two years of constant exams, tests, socializing has given me little time to reflect on the massive changes I've gone through as a person. Adulthood is tough, specially more or so at the beginning when you're often clueless as to how things work in the 'real' world.  I do have one thing however I got covered that some of my fellow  compadrés don't quite have; a sense of direction. I know what I plan on doing and incase that doesn't work out, I have other alternatives in mind. I am a realist, I'm aware life can't take all sorts of unexpected directions and it doesn't hurt to be prepared; mentally and physically if things don't plan out the way you wanted them to. That's one thing I've learned over these two years. 

Other than that, my social social circle exploded and I feel meeting and knowing so many people gave me a greater sense of the outer world out there. As kids we feel like we're our own little narrator, going through our own very story. Our worldview revolving around ourselves and other people being supporting characters.  And we grow older, that once endearing narrator starts to sound more cynical, darker and grittier. Or maybe that's just 4 am me talking. Though, i intresting, this change. I think I've become more extroverted as a person. I love meeting new people, honestly. They give me this renewed energy, I don't know. It's hard to explain. 

For what it's worth, my childhood and school years were kind of tough. But I have this  weird feeling, I'll kind of make it through adulthood. 

One breakdown at a time.

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Also jeez, I really need to lay off the caffeine.