I always felt like cutting was the only solution to me, because It's the the only pain I can control, The only pain that gives me what I deserve. Because I'm worthless, I'm a whore, I'm an "attention seeker", I want to die.
I can't stop. I can't stop when I click my fingers. It's an addiction, and I'll probably never be able to stop.
I'm always wearing long sleeved jumpers and jeans in summer and a lot of people have been asking me if I'm Okay, they'll only ever get the same reply "I'm fine.".
I'm not okay, I'm broken. I can't take it anymore, I just can't! My parents don't even give a living shit about me because I'm worthless and stupid.
I feel like writing is my only way out of this mess, but it's not helping anymore because I've stopped writing and started cutting more, I want to die, I want this to be over. I don't want to suffer anymore, I don't want anyone else to go through this pain, you fucking hear me?
That's why you guys are my only solution now, I don't know what to do and if you guys can help me, I'll stop, they'll stop.
