A F R A I D | a Bell ff

E L E V E N

The ride home was dead silent, except for when Maddie dropped me off and I thanked her. I quickly bolted inside, seeing as though no one was home, and ran into my room, throwing everything on the floor. I cried for a while, before getting underneath my blankets and crying some more. The awful words wouldn't stop replaying in my head over and over again.

I felt like I couldn't go back there again. Will was too far out of reach for me, I don't know why I even thought I stood a chance with him in the first place. I cried more, thinking about the nice things he told me and how happy he made me. This was all too much for me.

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I must've fallen asleep, as it was dark outside my window when my mom came and woke me up. "Honey," she said in her loving voice, "do you want to talk about this? I want to help you, here." I sighed, "I don't think you can help me. I just want to be left alone." I felt her kiss the top of my head and walk out the door, closing it on her way out. I took some time before I decided to look at my phone. Missed calls: Will (12) and Maddie (3). I didn't even bother to look at all my unread text messages, instead I turned off my phone and placed it on my dresser. I pulled the blankets over my head, and fell back to sleep once again.

When I woke up again, the sunlight was pouring through my windows. I rubbed my eyes open and huffed, as I got out of bed. When I looked in the mirror, I almost looked unrecognizable. My eyes were puffy and red, my long brown hair was tangled, and I didn't even change out of yesterday's clothes. I dragged myself to go freshen up and change into some more comfortable clothes. Nobody was home, considering it was noon on a Tuesday. I made myself some food and retreated back to my room. I was constantly thinking about Will and how much I fell for him. I had my head in the clouds, he was my crush for so long and when he finally asked me out I felt like it was destined to be.

I heard my doorbell ring once. I slowly got up to see who it was. It was Will. I looked like a mess and I my emotions were a mess, I didn't want to answer the door. I heard the doorbell ring again. And then again. Each time, my heart breaking a little more. He rung it once more, before I watched him take off in his red car. I was hurt by this, I have trouble with finding the right words to say, I just couldn't have answered the door. At least not now.

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Apologies that this chapter is a bit short! The next one will be worth it. ♡