Hey you.. yes you.. if you are reading this.. you must have known most of things i feel for you.. but you know what i really cant tell you.. But yes i can write.. i can scream in my silence.. Does my silence ever seem appealing to you? For they hold the loudest screams. Do my teary eyes ever pierce through your heart? For they hold the unexpressed feelings. Does my trembling voice ever echo in your ears? For they hold the unspoken words.
Where am I heading? Towards nothingness, maybe. Or I don't know. Am I lost? Definitely. Where am I lost? In you? Or your memories? In myself? Or in my thoughts? Maybe, i am lost in all of them. Or maybe, i am lost in something or somewhere which I don't know. For the moment, all I know is that I am lost. L.O.S.T.
What am I doing? Pretending. Pretending to be happy, when all I do is cry. Cry in my loneliness. Pretending to be fine, when all I have is pain. A vast ocean of pain and melancholy. Pretending to be enjoying, when all I do is shut myself out from everyone and everything and open myself up in solitude.
What am I even fighting for? When I know all fighting brings is bleeding and death. And when people fight, they know and they are sure of what they are fighting for. And I, I am fighting for something which I am not even sure of or know of. But honestly, that is not something I really wonder about. What I really wonder about is - "Why am I even fighting?" And I don't know the answer. Not to this question, atleast. I don't even know the "Maybe."
But you know what, I will be fine. Don't worry about that. I really will be fine. Just not TONIGHT. Maybe one day i will wake up and this will all just be a dream.

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Adhoori Kahani (Love : Depression to Inspiration )
Cerita PendekIts a completely incomplete love story based on my life. This story is still in progress and will be completed if i would be able to fulfill all the promises i made to myself.
