Roses and Daggers

2|Will It Ever Stop?

|Louis|

I finally forced myself to get out of bed. I wish I could just stay in my bed forever. But it's not healthy. It's not healthy being punched everyday either. I wish I had a different life. I wish I didn't have to face this everyday. I wish I could be someone else. I wish it would all stop, but it will never stop.

Sometimes I wish that someone else could take my place, but then I remember that no one deserves to be in the place that I am in, not even my biggest enemy.

I head to my bathroom to take a shower.

I stand under the warm water thinking of how different life would have been if I was another person, or better off dead. Right now I think dead is the better option. I wouldn't have to worry about being bullied or coming home after school and being scared that my dad was going to beat me again. I would be in a happier place. Maybe even, with my mum. I miss her so much and if she was here, she would help me.

I sigh and turn off the water.

I wrap a towel around my waist and walk out of the bathroom.

I'm thankful that there is a bathroom in my room, because if it was in the hallway my dad would probably beat me every time I go and use the bathroom.

I go to my closet and take out a pair of ripped black jeans, a black shirt, and my black converse.

I know what your thinking, no I'm not emo or anything in that category but I just like the color black, it matches my mood.

After I'm done changing I head out to my bathroom again to brush my teeth. Then I get out of my room and I stopped Infront of the stairs and started to get a little scared. My sister came from behind me and walk right past me.

"C'mon, we are going to be late." She says.

Of course she likes school. Everybody likes her and wants to be her friend. Unlike me. School is hell to me and nobody wants to be my friend not even the teachers.

I slowly go downstairs and when I don't see my dad in the kitchen, I run out the door.

My sister and I don't ride on the same car, she oviously doesn't want to be seen with me. I doubt people know that we are siblings.

I start the car and turn on my music.

Music is the only thing that can calm me down. Music is my escape from the world. Music is my escape from my horrible life. Lyrics speak to me in a way that it's as if they understand what I'm going through.

Once I see the school I roll my eyes. I absolutely despise school. If I could I would burn it down but I can't. Sadly.

I park my car in a free parking spot that was the farthest from the school. I started to walk towards the school and just took in the wonderful blue sky.

Honestly I don't hate life, but abusive people make me not want to take in the true beauty that life has to offer and it makes it difficult for me to like life.

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