Addison
We went to the hotel soon after. That was the most cringe worthy experience yet!
"So I hear you can sing", Blake said to me. I nodded awkwardly.
"Lets hear", he said.
"I don't really sing that much anymore", I said looking down.
"Why not", he asked. Him asking all these questions is making me annoyed but my dad was in the car therefore I was forced to talk.
"I haven't since my coma sorry", I said. Of course that was not the reason but if I told him the real reason I feel like I'd be opening up to him. And I know it seems bitchy to be such an introvert around them when I know I was most social around the go magnon. I won't lie and say that I have nothing against them because I do. I know I shouldn't because they technically have not done anything to me but they have mentally. If they just declined the offer to join the what some may call "the new magcon" maybe there would be no "new magcon boys".
I feel as though my dad knows I do not like magcon now, I feel that he knows that I cried in my room all night when he said the only person coming back was Aaron, I feel he knows that I've been painfully trying to act cool with this 'new magcon" thing. Yet he does not seem to care enough.
I know something about him though. Something no-one knows about him yet. He shows signs to the fans as if he is crying for someone to figure it out. There has been a few here and there that have noticed his change of behavior. Not like I have.
He used to call uncle Nash every night to check in and see what was up with him and his life. Now he is lucky to just maybe, just maybe get a call or text from him every 5 weeks or so.
I start to feel car sick just thinking about it. I was the only one who went with him when he went on tour. I was the closest to every one of my uncles. They loved Kate and all, but I was treated like a semi goddess.
Everyday someone would buy me something b=and I used to feel like I was spending all their money that could go else where.
I remembered this one time Shawn and I snuck out and got Starbucks together then we went to this park near the hotel and he sang and I danced to his music. We got $26 dollars that night. I remembered that the other week or so. Shawn had called to check on me and I was glad. I missed talking and seeing him every day.
I also remember how we got in trouble when we got back. Hayes was mad at me for days because I didn't invite him with us. He shunned me out for a total of 3 hours! That was a record for how much we used to talk. Now...Well you know how it is now.
