thomas couldn't find a way to fall asleep the night before his departure. he tried everything and only ended up tossing and turning for hours.
there was a tap at his window and for a second he thought he was just imagining it. then he heard it again and again.
he threw the covers off his body and walked over to the window. he drew back his curtains thinking it was probably some pesky bird. thomas jumped back in surprise seeing that it was way too big to be a bird. he made out the familiar face in the silver moonlight.
"newt?" thomas mumbled. he opened his window and newt hopped into his room.
"what are you doing here? how did you even get up here?" thomas asked.
"i want to tell you something." newt said standing face to face with thomas. "look, i know what i said yesterday and i know that it sucked. i know that i said that it would be easier but it was the worst, hardest goodbye i ever had to give, and i'm sorry. it wasn't easier at all, and all i've been able to think about is all the things i should have said instead of a stupid 'have a safe trip home',"
"it was pretty stupid," thomas agreed and they both laughed.
"anyway, i knew i would regret it for the rest of my life if i didn't say all these things i've been thinking about. so i want you to know that you changed everything. when i'm with you, i feel like summer could last my whole life and everything just fits. honestly, i didn't want to know what i was feeling, or why i was feeling the way i was, but god, i want to be wrong about summer friends. i don't want you to forget, i don't want things to change. all the things i did, happened because i was scared of getting too attached or falling for someone who doesn't care about me. i knew that when you left i'd miss your stupid face too much, and that i wouldn't know what to do if i told you how i felt. but, i thought about it a lot and you were right that night of the storm, we should stop being so afraid. so, i want you to know that i had the most beautiful summer with you, and— i love you." newt finished, out of breath and a little teary eyed (he thanked god for the dim moonlight) and thomas' heart swelled.
newt leaned in closer to thomas until thomas could feel newt's warm breath against his skin. they both stood still and thomas thought maybe time had frozen. newt's lips lingered over thomas', unsure if he was doing the right thing. thomas inched slightly closer and then they were kissing.
thomas figured out newt was right. everything did fit. it felt right.
"who knew you were such a sap, newt." thomas teased once their lips had parted.
"shut up and kiss me again." newt smiled. thomas pressed their lips together again and they couldn't help but smile against each other's lips.
"i love you, too." thomas said.
