Loving my bff's brother was just the beginning of my troubles...

Chapter 15

Leomari's Pov

I layed in the hospital bed just thinking. It still was hard for me to accept what happened to me and Josh's child. I mean all the pain. Not just from me falling and being in pain, but the mental pain too. Just the thought of it being gone.

I kept on thinking until I heard a knock at the door. I looked up and it was Rachelle.

"hi. Can i come in?" she asked.

"Yeah." I said kind of shocked.

She came in and looked around the room. Clearly she wasn't used to the environment, just like me.

"How do you feel?" she asked.

I gave a big sigh.

"I feel...better. But not completely well." I said.

She knodded her head.

"Rache..." I started off, but she cut me off.

"Mari listen. You don't have to apologize." she said.

"No I really do. I betrayed your trust." I insisted.

"Yes you did,and it still hurts. But last night I saw Josh at his lowest. I couldn't believe the way he was acting, feeling..."

"What happened?"

"He was so...stressed! And upset about you being in here. He blaimed himself. He said sorry to your parents about the whole thing. He cried out in pain saying how much he loved you." she said.

"wow." I said.

"It was that moment when I realized, I can't stay mad at you guys. I still love yall, and I wouldn't want to see you in any pain. So if you two being together is what makes you happy then do it." she said.

I smiled happily and started to tear up. So did Rache. I tried to reach for a hug, but my stomach still didn't feel right. I layed back down and Rache just laughed.

"Thanks Rachelle. Really. That means alot to me."

"Yeah. Well I got to go now. My mom doesn't like me stayin away from home too long."

"Oh yeah." I said laughing. 

After she left my parents came into the room. My mom immediately embrassed me with a hug and my parents looked down at me.

"Mom..Dad...I'm so sorry." I said.

"We know you are Leomari." said my dad.

"It's just that...I love him. And he was the only thing that made me happy. I didn't mean to disobey you but...but..."

"We understand Leomari. We aren't happy about the results of some things, but what can yah do? But why didn't you tell us?" said my mom.

"Cause I knew you wouldnt' be happy with me. I'm suppose to be the perfect child in your eyes and I know I'm not."

"You don't have to be perfect honey." said my dad.

"Yes I do. I have no choice."

My parents just stood there silently. My mom had this heart broken face expression and my dad was just looking like a dad, never knowing what to do.

"We're sorry sweetie." said my mom.

"It's ok." I said.

We all stood there in awkwardness. It's sad to see something like this. A family that does love eachother, but is so distant and different that neither can interact. Like me and my mom had one moment and then that was that. I think she realized that her pushing me into books, ment she didn't even know me. Or the things i've done or wanted to do.