Meraki* (MaiChard Fanfic)

Chapter 12 - Imagine You and Me

17 June 2016

Dear RJ,

Imagine you and me...together eternally.

Believe it or not, I've been listening to our song ('wag kang kokontra) for a couple of days already.  Try as I may, I really can't stop listening to it. From the moment I wake up in the morning to the second I fall asleep, I'm listening to Imagine You and Me. You could say that I really love the song.  Not just because I wrote the lyrics, but because it's about you and I. Halata naman 'di ba? Yihee. I'm sure, kinikilig ka na ngayon, Tisoy! Charot.

I don't have to tell you this (because you already know) but I want to write in paper how special you are to me. You truly are one of a kind for me, love. I know I don't always say it out loud (actions speak louder than words, 'di ba?), but I hope you know that I am hopelessly head over heels in love with you. Minsan kasi, you still have doubts if I would stay. Asa naman na aalis pa ako. Sabi nga nila, we should marry young. *pabebe wave*

The memories I thought of when I wrote this song are still fresh in my mind. I know you're curious because all I ever told you was that this song was inspired by our story. Now, you might be wondering which one or what specific memory or event. My answer? Everything. Honestly, all I ever did was think of all that has happened to us in the past year and the words just easily flowed out of me.

This was one of the moments wherein I was able to easily express how I feel about someone and how much I wanted you to imagine the two of us together. You told me before that you wished that I  would feel the same way about you, that I would love you back. You wished that I would feel the love you have for me. You wished that every dream you have will be granted (pamilyar no? haha). The song I wrote is my answer.

Ang saya lang talaga. I never really thought that I would be able to write a song that can express the way I feel in that short amount of time. I never really thought that I would have the chance to give people a song that they could relate to (and hopefully repeatedly listen to). I never really thought that I would change my mind when it comes to the song that I want to be played at my wedding day!  Minsan lang talaga magbago ang isip ko. Haha!

Anyway, I just want you to know that our story is now immortalized in a song. I don't think you've heard of this but they say that when you fall in love with a writer (meeeeee!), you will forever be immortalized in ink. I used to think that I would never find someone who would make me want to sing praise to the heavens and thank God for every moment that we spent together. That's why I am really grateful that you came into my life.

I could never forget this, love. I will never forget everything we've been through, every battle we managed to overcome. I will never forget the moments you made me smile, laugh, cry, or even huff in frustration (payb years old ka kasi minsan! haha). I will never forget your warm hugs (feels like home) and kisses (ehhh....alam mo na iyan). I will never forget your efforts to show me that my shortcomings aren't necessarily shortcomings, and that we were made imperfect because God has someone in mind that would gladly give everything away just to complete you. Like I said, whatever we have is irreplaceable.

Oh! A few weeks from now, our first movie (as the leads) will be out! I'm excited and a little nervous because...fine, I won't say it. See, I'm really trying to work on my self-esteem! Kaya dapat lagi mong sinasabi na maganda ako. Charot! Things really have turned in such an amazing way since we met each other and I wouldn't change anything (not even a little bit).

I'm saying quite a lot no? I guess I'm just feeling all the stress and pressure that I failed to hide yesterday. I'm so happy that you were there to support me. The anxiety was mounting up the moment I stepped on the center of the stage and I knew it wouldn't be so easy for me. You being there really helped me...and, of course, you already know that! Ikaw pa ba? Haha