pianí - bsk

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boo seungkwan pov
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i have a feeling that she is lying to me, i hope she will be okay. my world is finally seeing beyond and i can't let go of that barely burning amber that makes my world fire.

"seungkwan are you done yet?" my mom asks me.

"yeah lets go." i respond. i can't focus on jayeon right now, my mom says my grades have been going down since i went to the competition.

"you have to study extra now, you got a B on your last test, i am not a happy mom." i roll my eyes at the comment. "some kids at my school would kill for a B." i say.

my phone buzzes, i check it. it's hansol, i bet he found out. i'm just trying to look out for him.

"why didn't you tell me you know jayeon, why did you lie to me in the first place?" hansol's voice sounds more serious he must be sad about jayeon. above that he is probably mad at me.

"hansol, the reason i said i didn't know her is because i don't want to get in the way of your relationship, you seem to like her a lot." i state.

"don't worry i'll forgive you, i am going to see her now, plus thank you for saving her." he adds and then hangs up. at least i am forgiven.

"lets go mom." i say

today isn't as colorful, it's raining and my only light is in a hospital. i guess this is what it feels like to miss someone so much when you just left them.

right now i have urge to go back to her, but hansol is already probably there comforting her more than i ever could. she just calls me 'friend' but i'll get over it. it's not like i have a chance anyway.

"honey don't feel so down, be happy." my mother insists. how can i be when the one thing that really makes me happy is just fading away.

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AN: fam it's getting really sad now.