Titanium (Ashton Irwin Love Story)

finding out

"Did you actually did it just to tease me? Or did you wanted it yourself too?...."

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"Oh please, if I wanted it myself I would've gone further." I roll my eyes at him.
"So, just to tease me? Why?"
"Because you're being a dick Ashton!"
He was silence for a moment and I turn my head to my book.
"Maybe we should begin with the lyrics?" I ask him.
"Uhh, yeah, sure." He says grabbing a pen.
"Okay, so what are we gonna write about?" I ask.
"Uhh, Love?"
"What exactly?"
"Maybe about a boy, who's falling for a girl, but she doesnt notice him at all."
I don't know if he meant me and him, but I decide not to go further with it.
"Okay."
"Good, I'll do the lyrics and you the melody." He says.
"Shouldn't we do that together?"
"Nope."
"Well, okay then, but send me the lyrics when you finished it."
"Sure, if you send me the melody."
"Duhh."

So we worked the rest of the class in silence.
"Hey, may I see the lyrics for a second. Then I can see if they match the melody I found." I say while I turn back around to him.
"Nope, it isn't finished yet."
"But..."
"Sorry, gotta go." He says and then he stands up and leaves.
I just sit there staring at the door. What the hell was wrong with him? I sigh and pack my bags too. I stand up and walk to my next class.

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When I'm home I realize something; we still didn't finish that project! The history project! Oh god... I quickly grab my phone and text Ashton.

Me: We still didn't finish the history project!
Ashton: I know, you were too busy with sucking my dick.
Me: Ashton, it needs to be finished tomorrow!
Ashton: I know.
Me: We need to work on it.
Ashton: Okay, come to me. Then we'll finish it.
Me: No way. Let's go to the library in the school.
Ashton: The school is closed.
Me: But I don't wanna come to you.
Ashton: I don't want you to come either, but I'm still offering you. Now, just come so we can finish it.
Me: okay....

I was a little hurt by what he said, but I don't want to look desperate. I sigh and leave my house.

I knock on his door and wait until it opened. Ashtons mum stands in the door.
"Hey Sierra, what are you doing here?" She asks smirking.
"Oh, Ashton and I just need to finish that project..."
"Oh yeah... That project..." She smirks wiggling her eyebrows.
I laugh and she lets me in.
"So, you're really not interested in Ashton?" She asks.
"Why do you ask?"
"Well... I'm actually not supposed to say this but... I heard Ashton talking in his dreams the other night... I thought he was moaning your name..." She still smirks, but is also looking for a explanation.
I turn bright red and her smirk gets even brighter.
"You don't need to say anything, your face tells me enough. He's waiting upstairs for you."
I mutter a thanks and walk upstairs. I walk to Ashtons room and knock softly on the door.
"Come in." I hear him say.
I walk in and look at him sitting behind his computer. He looks up at me.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"So, uhh... Shall we start?"
"Yeah." I say while I walk to him and sit next to him.
"Okay, so we only need to do the conclusion and our opinions." He says opening the document and scrolling through it.
I just nod my head, rethinking what his mum said to me.
"Oh god, what did she do this time?" He says rubbing his eyes.
"Who? Your mum? Oh, she said nothing...." I say scratching my neck.
"Oh c'mon, I know she said something."
"Well, she asked if I was interested in you.."
"And you said?"
"Well, I asked why she would ask something like that."
"And?"
"She said she heard your moaning my name in your sleep yesterday...."
He just stares at me.
"Ashton? Did you dreamed of me?"
"Uhhh...." He turned bright red, just like I did.
"Well? Did you?"
"Maybe a little..." He awkwardly scratches his neck while he laughed a little.
"What did you dreamed?"
"Uhh..."
"Was it a dream or a nightmare?"
"It was a dream! Believe me, a dream..."
"What did you dreamed?" I ask again.
"Well I... Uhh..."
"Leave it. Your red face and stuttering says enough." I begin to blush too.
"Was I good?" I smirk suddenly,
He throws his head in his neck and laughs.
"You were perfect."
I laugh too.
"We need to work on the project." I say while I begin to write my opinion.

We finish the project in 30 minutes and I stand there a little awkward, not sure if I need to leave or not.
"Maybe I should go...." I say while I make my way to the door,
"No! I mean, you may stay if you want..." He says.
"I don't know if that's a good idea..."
"Please, stay with me. Not as a girlfriend or anything, just as a friend. I don't wanna fight, and definitely not with you."
"alright, but I leave early." I say while I sit down again.
He smiles and I smile shy back.
"We could better go to sleep, it's 23:30."
"But I don't have anything to wear."
"You may borrow one of my shirts if you want."
"Uh, yeah, thanks."
I walk to his closet and search for a long shirt. When I found one, I undress myself and let the shirt slide over my head. It get stucked around my arms. I begin to struggle, but it doesn't work. I sigh.
"Ashton, could you please help me?" I ask.
"Nah, I'm enjoying my view." He smirks.
"Oh, c'mon. Please?" I beg.
"Okay then."
I hear him walk around but I can't see him because the shirt got stucked over my head.
I feel his hands on my waist, going up.
"Ashton."
"Sshh... It's okay, I won't do anything..." He whispers softly.
In someway, it calms me down. I relax a little. He softly whispers words while he reaches the shirt. He pulls it down and smiles at me. I smile back at him while I pull the shirt further down.
"You look beautiful." He says softly.
I smile shy and he smiles back.
"Let's go to sleep." He says while he leads me to his bed.
He lifts up his shirt and I sit on the bed.
I look at his abs and bite my lip. He looks better than I expected. I know this is wrong, I have Luke. I let my eyes flow over his body until I see his arms. I grab one of his arms and go with my hand softly over his underarm. Little Cuts were everywhere.
"Ashton..." I whisper while tears appear in my eyes.
"Please don't tell this to anybody. Even my mum doesn't know this." He says looking into my eyes.
"I won't, but please let me help you get clean, I don't want to find you dead someday." I whisper still holding his arms.
"Really? You'll help me?"
"Of course."
"Thank you Sierra. I know I could trust you." He smiles lightly.
I try to smile back and we lay down on his bed. I nuzzle up in his chest and he lays an arm around me. In a few minutes, I'm off to sleep