Kaydet Girl (PMA)

CRAZY DAYS

CRAZY DAYS

March na.

At eto nanaman tayo sa walng communication.

And the hell I don't know that 7 day of without no communication is the start of longer ones to have no communication. Yes I know he is a yearling and it is second semester which means. It is the most difficult Academic semester for cadet in his whole PMA life. Pero nag tatampo pa din ako sa No Communication.

Antay lang Jane till lumabas sila ng March.

Acads un ang kalaban ko ngayon. But I know looser nanaman ako. Wala naman akong laban sa so called "Priority".

Poor me. L

Days passed, sometimes weeks and only one conversation on my inbox. I always keep my phone on its loudest volume just not to miss that one call or message from him. I even alarm my phone on 2200h and 2300h even 0100h to catch if he left a message. But most of the time I'm receiving nothing..

At first busy lang un.. ya I keep my understanding level 10000

Pero pag 3 days na, "nu bang lagi nilang ginagawa"

"kahit manlang 1min para mag txt, wala!!!,,,,eerrrr ><"

Oo pang 3 times ko na tong na mention. Pero ok lang yan ganun talaga

Pag 1 week na

"kami pa ba???"

"shocks ayaw na nia sa akin"

"may iba na xia"

"puta"

Ung understanding ko level ko nag decrease to -1000 na!!

Ung tipong mapaparanoid na ako sa kakaisip. At naisip ko nadin ang lahat ng pwede kong isipin..

At meron at meron naman ung mga nega kong friends that will say "Bakit ka pa kasi nag titiis.. May iba na yan!!"

Damn them actually!

I'm trying in my 9000% not to believe what they say.. pero pano ko naman maipaglalaban ang sigaw ng puso ko kung what I see also is killing me.

Sometime pag super sakit na. Just wanna dive in the ocean and hunt sharks or maybe hold a gun and start shooting at the clock so that it will stop ticking...

One time I woke up to bed, got dress and start running in the oval. I'm running as Fast as I can. I don't know how long I've been running or how many kilometers already I've passed. Napahinahon nalang ako when I already cannot run a meter.

Call me crazy but running helps.