Kaydet Girl (PMA)

GIVING UP

GIVING UP 

Days passed.

Ang hirap.

Nakaka praning lalo na at hindi mo pa nakausap ng matino.

A week maybe.

Then I contacted him. Asking if he still want me in his life.

I was scared to know the answer. What If.. what if he doesn't.

Maybe I'll faint.
Maybe ill die.
May heart would broke.
And maybe i wont survive.

And as usual it took 24hours for him to catch my message.

"yes off course bakit naman hind" sabi nia

Tuwang tuwa nanaman ako!!! Hahahah

So naisip ko ching ching Away lang to na at eventually mag kakabati din kami.

Let me set something para fair.

"ganito nalang" I said.

"Nag adjust ako para sa maintindihan ung mala heroine mong military life, ngayon naman can you do the same for me.?"

Hindi ako sanay na pinapabayaan ditto. And just do your thing mode.

Yes we both know that I'am a strong lady pero ang lakas ko lang naman ay sayo ko din hinuhugot. My cadet is my strength.

My exboyfriend would text me every minute to check me out. My ex boyfriend is his complete total opposite.

"can you adjust also sa civilian life ko para naman fair?>"

Pero alam mo ang sagot

"Im tired and gusto ko ng mag rest"

" I wanna do good here, pero sana rest lang ito I don't wanna lose you."

"COOL OFF muna tayo"

Huminto ang puso at mundo ko ng saglit.

Kung ano ung na feel mo na nag break kau ng boyfriend mo. Well ganun din po ang feeling ko ngayon. My heart just broke into pieces.
My heart just died.

Little by little nag snap out na ako. My tears started to fall. The feeling is unexplainable.

I love him and it was only him. I never thought one day our hearts would separate. I stood up to distance and time, to communication and specially to our relationship. And now the one I love just gave up on me.

I felt I was nothing but a hindrance to his career. Pabigat ba ako masyado?
Now I see my self as burden to him.

I couldn't feel more stupid and big stone on his heart.

I WAS BROKEN!

AND I DON'T KNOW IF HE WAS ALSO.