Love's Misunderstanding ||A Loki Fanfic||

Chapter 16:Regrets

"I will give him up," I said slowly to Michelle after thinking it all over. It was what was best for the both of us anyways. I couldn't be with him, I didn't want to be.

"Then you'll have to prove it. Tell him."
"Tell him what?"
"That you don't love him."
"Why?"
"Because Thor is taking him back to Asgard and he will only keep trying to come back and be on our plate if he thinks he has a chance with you. Just remember Adeline, he killed Coulson. He deserves to pay for that."
I listened, and slowly nodded.

Michelle then led me down to the containment cells and let me in. I walked in his cell and saw he was standing, not facing me.

"I knew you would come," he said, turning his green eyes piercing mine.

"Why did you let yourself be caught?" I asked.

"I had to see you again Adeline... I missed you." He stepped closer to me, my anger building up. He should've let me go and I wouldn't be in this position! He cupped my face, his lips drawing closer to mine and I allowed it. He kissed me slowly and I pulled away. "I love you," He whispered.

I turned, not daring to look him in the eyes.

"I can't do this."
"What?"
"This! I don't love you! I never did! I never could!" I said turning to face him, my anger fully showing. I was angry at him, at S.H.I.E.L.D they were making me do this. I could tell him the truth, but it wouldn't end good, it would only encourage him. I had to do the wrong thing for good to come out of it. I realized I was going to have to push him away to protect us both.

"Adeline, you don't have to stay with S.H.I.E.L.D. we could.... we could run away together, be together."
"I can't let you out."
"Can't or won't?"
My silence answered his question.

"I can't runaway with you! My job is here! My life! I can't uproot everything for someone like you."
"You don't mean that..."
"I do! I've had a month to think and the more I do the more I despise you for kidnapping me! For killing Coulson! You took half a year from my life! One I can never get back!"
I looked at him and his green eyes, shadowed, filling with regret, anger, sadness. I felt like I had helped him put himself back together and now I was shattering him again.

"I could never love someone like you. A killer, a fraud..... Someone who is so insecure about themselves they have to almost destroy a whole world and try to kill everyone on his to rule it!" I said, stepping forward to him, looking him in the eyes, pushing whatever I had for him so far down. Even his pitiful looks couldn't effect me. Call me cold and mean, but I had grown callused with losing people and now, I was losing someone again. I couldn't let myself feel that, not right now, maybe not ever. I had to protect myself.

"I trusted you! All those nights together talking, They meant nothing to you?!" He said stepping away.

"No, they didn't. You trusted the wrong person. People were right about you.. and I finally believe them... You're nothing but a villain.... A monster!" I said turning quickly, Thor entering the compartment, grabbing his brother by the arm and dragging him away. He looked at me, and I saw I had broken him, completely. He didn't look at me with sorrowfulness, but instead, with hate and anger.

Once I left the containment cells I saw Michelle standing there.

"You did good." She handed me my badge that she had taken from me beforehand. "You've been bumped down, but you should be able to work your way up again if you don't do something like this again."

I walked off. I walked into my bedroom, locking the door and sitting on my bed. I felt numb, I had pushed away the only person I thought I could possibly love. But it was for the best, I was still an agent, and he got the consequences he deserved for what he has done. Then I could work myself up again, be the girl who I used to be, the girl I wanted to be. She seemed so far away, so cold and distance, almost a completely different Adeline. I almost didn't like her, but I had to be her if I ever wanted to make it now. They were right, and I had done the right thing. I didn't need Loki, he was a set back, a distraction, I took care of it though, and I was never going to put myself in that position again.