Twitteritis ❂ Shawn Mendes

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April 12, 2016
9:43 PM

BRINGINGMENDES: hey boy, long time no talk, shall I catch you up? It's been some hectic four months, but you've been there for me which is why I'm still here. Can't wait for the second album, more of you're talent to keep me standing. It hasn't been the best for me, it seems whenever I get better physically and mentally, I get knocked down again. I might go to foster care, it's been rough. Shawn, my mom's my life, sure she doesn't know half the things about me, but she's my mom and that means everything to me. We've all been fighting, I've been crying every night, even thought about leaving for good sometimes but I promised myself I'd never leave until we meet and I'm one to keep my promises. I mean, my problems are probably minuscule, and I know a lot of people have it worse than me, but I can't stop the sadness that's always looming over my head. School doesn't help either, bullies, same ole, I'm use to it. But I've been to thirteen schools, maybe more, and the bullying is the worst here. I want out, I don't understand why people have to hurt you for liking certain music or wearing certain clothes or looking a certain way, some things they bash about me, I can't change. I'll never be able to change. I want to be happy with how I look, but it's impossible with everyone telling me I'm the opposite of how I wanna feel, you know? There's a few people that've kept me upright through everything. You, I love the little flaws that make you, you. I know I should love that about myself, but if no one does than why should I, you know? Well, you'll never read this, so I should get going, but somehow when writing this, I always feel like you're reading, I don't know it's weird. Sometimes I wish we could just be friends, where you're not my idol supporting me metaphorically, yet my best friend supporting me physically, I wish we weren't separated by fame and stuff, but that'll never change, I'm just a fan and that's all I'll ever be. You're a really good person, I just wish we could be friends. But I love you, I wish you'd say it back, just once, I need it more than ever. I love you so fricking much Shawn, please remember that even if I'm gone, okay?