Guitar Guy (Luke Hemmings)

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dear Luke,

I lost it today.

Ashton and I went to get ice cream after he was done drumming. By now he knows that order vanilla.

But when he ordered it he said, "Vanilla bean, for this little bean."

He was just trying to be cute, but it broke me.

You always called me that.

I ran out the door and into the alley between the shops and I cried.

I hugged my knees and let it all out.

It didn't take long for Ash to find me and quickly sit down, hugging me.

"I miss him. I miss him so fucking much." I cried.

I haven't told Ashton about you yet, but he was able to comfort me.

He didn't say anything, just sat there with his arms protectively around me.

I think I love him, Luke.

I hope you're okay, I still worry about you.

I love you.

Love always,

Mia.