Secrets (A Camren Fanfic)

Chapter 28

"Are you ready for part two?" I ask Camz as soon as we leave the recording studio. We recorded and sent the demo to Demi so now all we have to do is wait for her to get it and hopefully she loves the song as much as I do.

"Lolo I don't think it is even possible to top this." she replies ecstatically and I can't stop the smile on my cheeks. Making the younger girl happy makes me the happiest person in the world, my cheeks actually hurt from smiling. It's just something about her, I can't contain the smile on my face when I'm with her.

"Maybe not but I wanted to give you something." I pop the trunk of my car and take out the canvas.

I handed her the canvas of the sun and the moon that I painted her. "There's this story that I love so much, it's about the sun and the moon. It's about how the sun cared so much about the moon that he died every night to let her breathe. The thing is, the story doesn't have a happy ending because their fates were already picked out, they could never be together but you make me believe in happy endings and so I painted a happy ending. It's the story of us." I start. I honestly didn't realize what and why I was painting what I was until it was already painted.

"See you're the moon to my sun. You glow so bright and you are so radiant. You and I are like day and night and normally that wouldn't work but a very beautiful and wise person once told me nothing real can be threatened and there is nothing more real than the way I feel about you. I will always do anything I can to make sure you glow like you deserve to." I finished my explanation of the painting and stare at the younger girl who's glossy eyes stared between me and the canvas.

"How in the world did I get so lucky to have someone like you in my life? You are honestly the most incredible person and you are definitely the sun because you brighten up my day unlike anyone else." she smiles before bringing her lips up to mine.

I kiss the younger girl gently before wiping the tear from her eye.

"Wow we are both so cheesy, I don't know who's worse." I joke.

"Oh you are way cheesier than I am, even pizza is jealous of you." she countered and I couldn't contain my laughter. Camila tells the worst jokes ever that I can't help but to laugh.

"I love your smile." Camz whispers and our eyes connect again, this time it felt like she was searching for something deeper.

"I love.." I try to say the words that I have been trying so desperately hard to say to her but nothing comes out.

"I love your smile even more princess." I reply and kiss her head softly.

Camila's face dropped for a second before putting on a smile that I can tell was not competely sincere.

"How about we go back to my place and I can make you some dinner, you did all of this for me, let me make it up to you." Camz kissed my hand and I just nodded and opened the car door for her.

I hope more than anything that the younger girl doesn't doubt my feelings for her. I'm normally so good at expressing myself but when it comes to her I get so intimidated and scared.

A part of me doesn't want to say the words because what if she doesn't feel the same way? I still feel like she is too good for me, what if she realizes it too? I'm so scared of being happy with her because every time I'm happy, something comes around and ruins it and I don't want what I have with Camila to be ruined and I don't want to scare her away.

Instead of always thinking this to myself I know that I should communicate this with my girlfriend but she has so much going on I don't want to add any extra worry or stress so instead I keep it bottled up.