Secrets (A Camren Fanfic)

Chapter 12

When I wake up the first thing I notice is that Camila is missing. I immediately get scared and jump out of her bed. I look at the clock and notice it's only 6 in the morning.

"Camila?" I call out and breathe a sigh of relief when I hear her humming in the kitchen. I sneak into the kitchen and listen to her voice as she hums a familiar song. I believe it's Stay With Me by Sam Smith. I can't hear her voice very well but it sounds beautiful.

I walk up behind her and kiss her cheek. "You know.. you should really stop leaving every time we sleep together." I smile.

"Well Lauren Jauregui we haven't slept together... yet. But I am making you breakfast." she turns her head slightly to kiss me. Of course I kiss back with no resistance.

However, my heartbeat may have increased significantly at her "yet" comment. Unlike when I was with Brad, the thought of being with Camila in a more intimate way makes my stomach tingle.

"So what are you making me? Pancakes?" I ask because I absolutely love them.

"Oh god no. Pancakes are so overrated. That's like all anyone ever eats. I, my cute little girlf.. Lauren.. am making you a breakfast wrap."

She almost called me her girlfriend! I definitely caught that slip up. Does she want that? Could she possibly want that with me? I don't want to rush things with her. Well, maybe just a little.

"Yum what's in it?" I ask so she doesn't get suspicious and think I caught on.

"Eggs, tater tots, sausage and bacon. Oh and cheese. It may sound nasty but trust me it is pure gold. My mom used to make it for me all the time." she smiles sadly and I can't help but wonder why she said "used to" as in past tense.

"Did your parents get divorced or something?" I question as I watch the younger girl cooking on the stove.

"Uhm.. no she died.. when I was 10.." Her voice cracks a bit and I can tell she still isn't over it. To be honest I would never get over it either.

"What happened? If you don't mind me asking?" For a while she was quiet until she finally finished cooking breakfast and handed me my breakfast wrap.

"It was my tenth birthday... my mom and dad wanted to take me out to eat and to a park. We couldn't really afford to do anything big but it was something I looked forward to every year. My mom was pregnant at the time with a little girl. I got to choose her name.. she was going to be Sofi. So my dad is driving and we're all just singing and having a good time when out of nowhere a car comes and crashes into the car. My mom didn't have her seatbelt on because she thought it would hurt Sofi.. she ended up being flung out of the car and she died at the scene.. along with Sofi. It turns out the driver was drunk when he crashed the car. He survived too. Not so much as a scratch on him but I lost my mom and my sister.. in a way I lost my father too." I can see the tears building up in Camila's eyes and I can feel them in mine as well. I never knew that and it is absolutely heartbreaking.

This answers so many questions. It answers why she got emotional the first day of school when I asked about her being an only child, it explains why she didn't let me drive drunk, it explains why she didn't want to talk about the picture of her mom in the car and it explains why I never see her mom around.

"Is that why you started hurting yourself?"

"No.. well partly. After that, my dad started drinking a lot. He blamed me for the crash since it was my birthday and he made me believe I was guilty. He told me that it should've been me instead. Shortly after, his temper started getting really bad and he started taking it out on me.." she keeps her head down as she takes a bite of her wrap.