Lost in me

FRAGILE

I was afraid at first, scared to write down these words.

I was afraid of what you'd feel. I didn't want to cause unnecessary pain.

But now, I'll ignore that fear of hurting you. Maybe because I want to.

O dear Lord, it hurts me too. My tears have become my ink.

I don't mind... I don't mind... I do.

These racking sobs won't go away. I need to find a way...without you.

Staring at the full moon, headphones on, volume at the loudest.

The moon with her beauty and calm doesn't sooth my sore heart.

The music blowing up my eardrums doesn't stop the thoughts in my head. Thoughts of...I hate to know I'm so fragile without you.

I should never have bared my soul. It won't be so hard if I hadn't. Is that true?

I don't know anymore, I don't.