Lost in me

LOSS OF A MEMORY

Its a new day, and I can't shake off this feeling.

It hurts. What is it? Jealousy? Its something deeper.

I don't know what it is, I don't understand what I feel.

All I know is it hurts so bad...God.

It's not midnight yet, but I feel the tears rising. I hate you but I love you more.

How perfect, 'Prince of Egypt ' just tuned in. God, I'm going to explode.

I should have been there. Don't you see? I wanted to be.

I wanted to watch you, I wanted to live that moment with you.

I wanted to create another memory.

But why would you need me. You had your mother. She made it 'less unbearable'.

She would be in the pictures you look at years later with a smile on your face.

I won't.

I'm starting to forget, the memories are too painful to keep.

We both know what that means.

Maybe its time.

I wanted to create a memory, but now I'm losing mine.