glimpse.

May 17 2015

I visited a lake.
The first thing I do was wanting to go visit Michael.

I jumped in to the lake. Wanting to drown. Letting go of everything. The water so blue, it gave me flashes of the guy. I look at the bubbles as it left my mouth. My eyes drew heavy, but before anything could happen to me. I feel a strong arm wrap around my waist, pulling me up above the water.

I started spitting out the water as soon as my lungs reached air. I cough and choked. I look up to see a light brown hair boy, looking at me for relief.

"Why would you do that to yourself?" He asks me worrying.

"I-I" I'm still choking on the water.

"Carla, what were you thinking? I finally got to see you again and your trying to die." He spoke, frantically shaking my arms. He knows my name. He said my name. He knows me. We met before? I look at his eyes looking for blue, yet I see hazel.

"You know me?" I never knew anybody other than Calum and Michael.

"Carla, you don't remember me? I'm Ashton, Ashton Irwin. I'm 20 years old. I play drums, we hung out back in college. 3 years ago. " he looked shock to find out I didn't know him.

" I don't remember anything that happened 4 years ago. It's a blur. I'm sorry Ashton." I shook my head only seeing flashes of places.

"Did the car accident really hit you so hard you have amnesia? " Car accident? Then flashes of a giant crash played in my head. I felt a pang in my side.

"Ashton stop! I don't think I need to remember any more. It's hurting me. " I pressed my hands on head.

"You were in the hospital for so long. And one day you left. You didn't contact us. We asked the hospital where you went. The hospital said you went looking for someone named Michael. " tears fled my eyes the moment I heard his name.

"Carla? Why are you crying?" He stopped talking and went to hug me.

"I f-found Michael after I left the hospital. We had a whole history together and everything. And he had leukaemia and he died yesterday. " I sob into Ashton's embrace.

"Oh. It's okay Carla, I have you. You don't know now, but before the car accident, I told you I liked you. It took you for a turn and you were drunk, so you drive. And there was another drunk driver and just major crash. I was so worried. But it's okay. " he patted my back.

" I lost my memories, by driving drunk? You liked me? Why did that made me upset?" I croak out.

"Well, it's because, We both told you that we liked you. And you had your mind on someone else, I'm guessing Michael. And we got in a fight. I'm sorry." He began to crack a bit.

"Who's we?"

"Luke and I. We were a trio. We both liked you. Luke told you first. I did two days later. After I told you that. You told me that you had someone else you liked. And Luke overheard our conversation. And things went to a fight. It was at our house. We had a mini party, we drank. I confessed and fight happened. Then you drove and yeah." Ashton recalled back. The name Luke gave me so much memory. Images of blue eyes pop up.

"Does Luke have blue eyes?" He's gotta be the one that pops up in my memory.

" Yes." That's all he said. A bit sad.
Probably because I remember only one thing and it's his eyes.

"His eyes pop up in my memory. Ocean eyes." I pushed away from Ashton to look at his face.
Tears came out of his eyes and they lit orange brown.

"Do you want to see him?" Ashton asks.

I nodded.
"Alright."

AN
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