Heathens

Yøu're an angel

Ruby -Regional at best

The day is bad. But the night is worse. That's when the darkness take over.
It's been a week since the guard said he would try to give me a piano. Nothing happened so I guess he failed.
I'm doing the same everyday. The only thing that changes is me.
I'm getting worse. The lack of sleep and food is making me sick. And mentally... It's been worse. I'm never happy. My suicidal thoughts gets bigger for everyday. If I could I would end this.
"Tyler" I know the voice. I have missed it in what feels like forever. I turn around and see Josh. My eyes is filled with tears.
"I miss you so much" I'll say sobbing.
"I'm here now" he says. But I know that he can be gone any minute.
"How is it?... To die?" I hear myself ask.
I can see the pain in Josh's eyes.
"Sorry." I say fast.
"Tyler. You have to get trough this" he suddenly says to me.
"I can't. Not without you" I start crying again as I look into his brown eyes.
"You have to stay alive. Stay alive for me" he says and I'm feeling guilty. I know I can't.
"Don't you know how hard that is? Don't you know how bad I have it? I can't do this anymore. I can't stay alive even though I deserve it. I deserve to live with the pain" Now I can't stop the tears.
"Tyler I know. I have seen you. I have seen you hurt yourself" his eyes is focused on my arms.
"You... You know?" He aren't supposed to know.
"Yes. I know" he looks worried at me. "And you don't deserve it"
"You're an angel" I say. I don't know why but I'm sure.
"You're my guardian angel" I bend over to hug him. But as I reach out to touch him, he disappears. Again.
I can hear footsteps down the hall. Quickly I do wipe the tears of my face.
"Joseph" I stand up from the bed and try to hide my face so he can't see that I've cried.
"What?" My voice is shaking. I can't control it.
"The piano is here"
Two guards come in first to hold me while two other men's is coming inside with a small el-piano.
"Th... Thank you" I say as they leave.
I walk over to the piano and play a few chords before I plug the headphones in. I'm not happy. But.. I'm less depressed.
I begin to sing:
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You're an angel fallen down
Won't you tell us of the clouds?
You have fallen from the sky
How high, how high
Tell my dad I'm sorry
Tell my dad I'm sorry
Tell my dad I'm sorry
Tell my dad I'm sorry
Tell my dad I'm sorry
Tell my dad I'm sorry
Tell my dad I'm sorry
You're an angeeeeeeel
You're an angeeeeeel
You're an angeeeeeel
You're an angeeeeeel
You're an angel

Maybe I can survive. Not forever. But a little longer than I thought. Only a little.

Okay. Don't ask me why he suddenly gets a piano... God I'm so stupid sometimes. Anyways. Please don't think about that cause I know I f*cked the story up