Hear me now -No phun intended
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Music. Music saved me. For now.
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Right now I'm in a good stage. I'm not happy. But It's better. Even tho I know it won't last long. I keep on writing songs. Or more specific one song. It's to Josh. I just wish he could hear it. Maybe someday. But... Josh is in heaven now... I can't get to heaven. After all I have done I'm gonna end in hell. Even when I die I can't see Josh. But he'll can't be worse than this.
I'll play the song to Josh again. But this time I don't have the headphones plugged in.
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Words of mine
Words of yours
Confusing rhymes
And confusing wars
Between words of love
Words of hate
Wars of dream and
Wars of fate
Once again I step inside my shoes
I battle now for every single thing I do
And I don't care cause I don't have a clue
I see you close all the windows in my room and they'll me how I'm comfortable in silence broken teeth and skin that I'm in I can't win
I want you to break me up break me down to the sound
So I can pray that someone hears me now
I JUST PRAY THAT SOMEONE HEARS ME NOW
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There was a moment in my life
Where I thought that you were gone
And every moment of my life
Was just us pretending
I go to sleep every night I should be good at it by now but very lonely is tonight and time stand still somehow
I try to picture you with all the kingdom I can't find
Fighting gravity turning with this little mind
I think I saw the kingdom get this feeling I must keep
Walking closer crack the door and then I fall asleep
Cause every time I think I see your face it fades away and turns to grey
Anyhow I just pray that someone hears me now
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I can hear someone clap in the background. I know it's Josh. I just know. Even before I turn around.
"That was..." He stops to think "I can't describe it with words" he says.
"Really?" I ask.
"Yeah" I smile. The first real smile in... Months I think. The first real smile since Josh died.
"Look at you. You're smiling" Josh say.
"Yeah. Because of you." I don't think I can smile without him.
"See. Stay alive. It's worth it" I'm not sure. But right now I'm happy to be alive.
I know there was nothing exiting at all in this chapter. But I hope you enjoyed it anyways
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Heathens
FanficThe story is based on the Heathens theory. Tyler is in prison. He (or blurry) did kill Josh. But Tyler don't remember. He keeps seeing Josh everywhere. I know the description is bad. The story is better.
