If he was mine

This is all your fault...

I lie in bed not wanting to get up, I thought that it was just a nightmare that it never happened. I thought that I would feel better this morning but I feel worse, this is the time were I want to go snuggle with Jesse to feel safe and warm. I ruined it I let him kiss me and the fact that I didn't pill back straight away was because I don't know why, that's what really scares me. I get up leaving my hair in waves throwing a shirt, jacket and jeans on I open my door nearly smashing into Rafael.
"Uh um", he shudders.
"Move", I hiss at him.
"Hey wait", he says grabbing my hand.
"Holding hands to that's cute", Jesse says pushing Rafael out off the way not even looking at me.
"Jesse", I call giving Rafael a death stare.
I run after him down the stairs barley keeping up, I reach out and grab his arm.
"What", he says spinning around.
"Can we talk", I ask.
"Talk you want to talk than go talk to your love sick puppy up there", he hisses at me.
"One nothing happened and two he's mine", I hiss back.
"Nothing happened. Are you freaking kidding me Izzy, you freaking kissed him then I catch you holding hands. I don't want to talk to you just let me be", he yells at me.
"He kissed me and you know that we weren't holding hands, so stop making up shit", I yell at him.
"Yeah he did kiss you but you didn't stop him straight away why", he asks me.
"Because because Urgh I don't know", I say starting to cry.
"See I new it I was never going to be good enough for you, was I", he screams.
"Was I", he spins around and smashes a vase to the ground.
I shake in fear as he walks away, what have I done why didn't I push him away when he kissed me why.
"I'm sorry Izzy", Rafael says from behind.
"This is all your fault if you had kept your stupid feelings to yourself this wouldn't be a problem and we would be friends right now. Just stay away from me and my life from now on I'm sick of you ruining everything", I scream with tears spilling down my face.

Jesse's pov:
She screams at my brother the pain just slipping out of her voice, he's so stupid I could kill him but I can't stop taking it out on her. He thinks she deserves better but I love her and need her in my life it's like it's not complete without her there filling the gap.

I stand there with my friends not paying attention to anything there saying because my minds focused on Isabelle she keeps looking at me with that pain in her eyes, she mopes around the school like she's dead. I want to forgive her but when they kissed it look so right like it was meant to be unlike me and her. When I drove away yesterday afternoon watching fall to the ground was the hardest thing in my life not to turn around and wrap her into my arms and keep her safe, I should have never trusted Rafael alone with her.
"He dude your girlfriends coming over", Jack my friend whispers to me.
I turn around meeting her eyes there shut no emotions coming out just plain emptiness I turn back around noticing the guys are watching.

I can't do this not know.
"Jesse we need to talk now", she says behind my back.
"Can't busy", I say not turning around earning a laugh from the boys.
"Really why don't you turn around and say that again to my face", she yells at my back.
I feel her move closer, I spin around she's right in my face breathing on me.
"What do you want", I whisper.
"To talk", she pleads.
"Five minutes", i retort.
"Done", she agrees grabbing my hand pulling me along.
We get to a corner in our area were no one else is.
"I know why I didn't push him away", she says looking up into my eyes.
"Why", I ask harshly a but to harsh.
She winces at my tone of voice letting out a deep breath.
"Because I wanted to know if I liked him or you I already thought you but I needed to make sure that was the only reason I didn't push him away straight away, i wanted to know so that I didn't hurt you by leading you on. I didn't want our relationship to be a complete lie", she explains.
I feel terrible the start of our relationship was a lie, you may be thinking what it was a stupid mistake before I came here I was at boarding school and I found out who was leading me around on the first day so I stalked her in the Internet and bet with my friends that I could get her to go out with me but after the first day with her I forgot all about the bet and wanted it for real but I never told her because the boys just bought up on the weekend it had completely slipped my mind.
"Jesse", she says I realize I was just standing there staring at her.
"Sorry I understand but I need to tell you something that your not going to like or want to here I forgive you but I hope you listen carefully and realize I don't feel this way anymore it was before I had even met you", I start carefully.

She gets up and runs away, obviously she didn't get what I meant I just explained everything I wish should would have stayed and let me explain some more. I run after her but she heads into the girls toilets. I walk past Rafael's table I turn and look at him he smirks at me that's it I'm going to kill him.
"What's your problem little bro", I yell at him.
Everyone turns and looks our way, I'm going to kill him for this getting me and Izzy getting this mess.
"Nothing just the fact that I'm guessing you told her and know she's going to want someone to hug tonight to comfort her oh and guess what that's going to be me", he says with another annoying smirk mine are so much better by the way.
"Huh you wish, she's just a little pissed", I hiss at him.
"She's already kissed me shes not going to stop at hugging me", he hisses back.
"You kissed her and she just told me the only reason she didn't pull back earlier was because she wanted to know if there was a spark but guess what there wasn't", I say moving closer.
"Get it through your thick head Jesse she wants me not you, she never has never will", he yells back.
"That's why she was practically begging me to stay yesterday morning", I smirk at him.
He launches forward I doge his punch and swing my fist into his gut, he knees me in the stomach and punches my lip. I smash his jaw and hit his eye.

Isabelle's pov:
I watch as Jesse and Rafael fight each other, I can't stand it I get up in a table.
"Stop it", I scream.
Jesse looks up along with Rafael, Jesse onto of him fist cliched it's the air.
"Get up", I say climbing off the table.
"You guys need to seriously get a grip, Rafael stop causing shit and mind your own business and you come with me", I grab Jesse's hand leading him away from the crowd over to the bubblers.
"Sit",I order.
I pull tissues out of my pocket and wet it with the cool water, I swip and his cut lip he try's to make eye contact but I avoid it. I throw the tissue in the bin and wash my hands.
"Thanks", he says grabbing my waist.
"Wow you really thing I forgave you", I retort at him.
"Nope but I'm hoping you will", he says pulling me closer.
I would step back but he's to gorgeous to move, I look down at my feet a tear slides down my cheek. He pulls me into a hug.
"I know I have hurt you but you need to understand as soon as I met you I forgot all about the bet and was focused on you. I'm not with you know just because of a stupid bet, I need you to understand that", he day swiping the tear away.
"That's the thing I can't", I say and walk off.

Omg yay more drama I hope you enjoy this chapter because tomorrow's the last day of holidays so I won't be able to write as much or as often.vote and comment please.
-HannahlolDobson💕