If he was mine

Gotta let go...

I wake up to the sound of to voices yelling at each other, it's Jesse and Rafael I'm confused but then it hits me last night and everything comes back and hits me hard. I lay back down and throw the blanket over my head trying to drown out there voices when my phone buzzes.

Annie: Whoops sorry about last night but I was taking back what was mine, your right Jesse's way better than Rafael!
I scream in frustration and throw my phone across my room and cry myself to sleep.

3 days later
Jesse's pov:
She hasn't left her room for three days, I sat outside her door this morning listening to her soft crys of pain. I was so stupid I didn't even now what came over me to make out with Annie how stupid could I get we were finally getting back to normal when I go and ruin it all. Rafael won't talk to me, Izzy won't answer her phone but Annie won't stop annoying me. I heard downstairs and into the stable I grab my tack and get ready for a ride.

Izzy's pov:
I feel the bed dip next to me I swear to god if that's Jesse he's a dead man, I lift the blanket off my head and see a sad smiling Amber. She leans in and hugs me when my tears come streaming down my face and onto her shoulder we stay like that for hours when she finally drags me out of bed because she has to go do some modeling for a magazine. I have a long hot shower and grab a black high neck top, purple jodhpurs, a black belt and my show jumping boots. I get to the stable and tack up Kingfisher using his black saddle with a white saddle blanket underneath, I mount up and start warming up running through some small jumps before I bring them up to a hight that I have never jumped ever. We slip into a steady canter on the right lead we head to the first jump and sail over, the next jump a double oxer which we do with no problem, we get to the next jump I lose his attention doing a quick half hauls just in time to gain his attention and sail over. As goes for the rest of the course was the same it felt amazing to be jumping at that hight it felt like I was flying that everything that had happened was flying behind me and my focus was now on my show jumping till the competition was over.
"Looking good", Rafael calls walking over to me.
"Thanks", I reply not really in the mood for talking.
"Go around again I will time and judge you", he says.
I do as I'm told and we do that for another hour then I head back to the stables to untack King Fisher giving him a wash and a good brush down so his coat was gleaming.

We all sit around the table for dinner it was the first time we did this since I had been here, it was awkward and unsettling.
"So are you ready to compete", Mr Burns asks.
"Yeah King Fisher and I have a real bond I trust him with all my heart, he won't let me down", I say looking at Jesse for the last part.
"I said sorry", he mumbles.
"Well sorry won't cut it", I mumble back.
"I know", Jesse says looking at me.
"Really do you", I raise my voice.
"Izzy leave it", Rafael says to me.
"No", I hiss at him.
"What's going on", Mrs Burns asks.
"Why doesn't Jesse enlighten us in why we are all so happy this afternoon", I say glaring at him.
"I'd rather not", he hisses back.
"Oh please do", Mrs Burns pushes.
"Fine I will, Jesse seemed to think it was a good ideas to make out in the open if I must add with Annie my best friend at the party on Friday and he thinks sorry with cut it", I say my voice full with rage.
No one speaks everyone's quiet Jesse looks embarrassed and miserable, I get up and dump my plate in the kitchen sink and head up stairs put my earphones in and let the music take over.

School goes by slowly for the last week and now we have summer break great, Annie smiles and flirts with Jesse every day 24/7 Ambers been amazing and Rafael and I are slowly being to gain our friendship again. It hurts still like someone keeps stabbing me in the same spot with the exact same knife and there's nothing I can do about it, he walks around miserable we both do not bowing what to do or even say to each other I can't even look at him and not feel hurt. We all get home and climb out of the cars one by one we get inside and head upstairs trying not to step on each other's feet, trying to get away from the awkwardness around all three of us. I get to my room and skype Amber we talk for hours about absolutely nothing, I then head down stairs and put on Tangled feeling like a Disney movie marathon.
"Mind if I join", Jesse's voice calls behind me.
"It's a free country and this is your house after all", I mutter.
"Right", he says sitting at the other end of the lounge than me.
"What made you do it", I mumble.
"I don't know", he mutters back.
That kills me that answer says it all he had no excuse that he could persuade me to believe nothing, he was giving me away for free without a fight.
"Wrong answer", I say getting up and leaving to my bedroom and slamming the door letting our screams of pain and disgust.

Another chapter I know two days in a row haha, hope you enjoyed will update soon💕
-HannahlolDobson😽