Rising up...

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I canter Kingfisher towards the jump and he flys over, I pull him to a stop and get off to put the jumps up higher. All week all I have done is basically stay in my room or outside training Kingfisher, at school it's awkward in class seeing were all together but I just don't know what I want. Jesse has hurt me really bad and Rafael has tried to be there for me but I can't let him in like that again because I know I will get hurt once again. I raise the jumps two notches and get back on we clear the jumps easy so I do some flat work for a while then walk him around to cool off. I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket so I pull it out.

Amber: Hey everyone hope you all have costumes for next weekends Halloween party try and be in pairs or no invitation, message me your name and your partners name thanksxx
Shit I forgot about, I was going to take Jesse but now I don't even feel like going I might as well not and just keep my mind on the show that's only a month away.
I change into a hoodie and black jeans and head down stairs into the lounge room. I need to fix this I can't have them both I get one or non, but which one. Jesse's amazing and caring but what he did was stupid our whole relationship was a lie. Rafael he funny and loving but the fact that he had the nerve to try and break me and Jesse up is pathetic. I sit for a but longer and think then get up and head up stairs to Rafael's room, I nock in the door.
"Come in", he calls.
I walk in and see that he's at his desk his back to me I go and sit on his bed.
"Can we talk", the sound of my voice made him jump.
He got up and was sitting next to me in a flash.
"Sure", he says looking deep into my eyes.
"I know I can't have both of you but I didn't know who I wanted and I still don't, but me and Jesse haven't even broken up yet so technically I'm still his girlfriend. He hurt really bad but so did I, and that was technically your fault which means you hurt me a lot to seeing Jesse your own brother go through that type of pain was heart breaking I could barley bare it. Rafael your a great guy and I have feels for you but there not as strong as Jesse's", I say looking up into his eyes holding both of his hands.
"I'm sos sorry for that Izzy I was being stupid I was jealous that he got a beautiful girl like you and I didn't, so I thought that maybe you would realize that I was a better choice. I understand your decision but I know that I will get you even if it's the last thing I do. I just want you to be happy", he says squeezing my hands.
"I'm happy", I reply getting up and leaving.

I nock on Jesse's door he doesn't answer, I walk in and see that he's asleep

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I nock on Jesse's door he doesn't answer, I walk in and see that he's asleep.
"Jesse"I call loudly.
He opens his eyes suprised by my presence.
"Get up and meet me in the car", I say as I walk off.
I wait in the car it doesn't take him long, I drive out into town to my favorite park were dad used to take me when I was younger, he new we were going to do this he new what was coming we were going to talk to decided what was going to happen. Honestly I was only just trying to figure out what I was going to say I had no idea what he was going to say and this could either end with shattered hearts or our hearts might be joined back together. We get there but neither of us get out.
"Jesse what you said about the start of our relationship basically tore out my heart, it felt like what we had and might still have was a mistake that it was all a stupid messed up lie. I finally felt happy I was finally able to want to go to school so I could see you and when I found out I was moving in for a while I basically lost it, I was going to be able to wake up to your beautiful face every morning. I know what Rafael did was wrong and it was partly my fault but I never wanted it to happen I just wanted us to be together. I did and do still have slight feelings towards Rafael but there never going to fully die, I never ever wanted to be with him I just wanted you and I still do but do you", I say looking up to his beautiful eyes.
"The fact that you just told me about Rafael didn't suprise me I new you did deep down I did, I just didn't want to admit it. I'm glad you have figured out what you want because I want that to but I need y to know that that stupid bet was not the reason we are together as soon as we walked out of that office together it was gone into thin air. The start of our relationship started when we left that office together and you showed me around that school. I want to be able to wake up to your face to, I want to go to Ambers stupid Halloween party with you. If you still want me I would take that second chance without a second thought", he says making me tear up.

 If you still want me I would take that second chance without a second thought", he says making me tear up

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"I'm glad to here that", I throw myself at him and we sit in the car like that for what felt like forever.
"One more week of school than your mine for the rest of the holidays", he whispers into my ear.
"I can't wait" I laugh.
"Mum and dad are going away, so it's just you me and Rafael which is unfortunate", he chuckles.
"He's not getting in the way don't you worry", I say giving his waist a tight squeeze.
"Oh trust me he won't be", he mumbles into our kiss.
"Sounds like a plan", I smile against his lips.

Omg what there back guys, can't wait for there summer fun filled holidays. You will absolutely love what is install, sorry for not updating but have been really busy with a drama filled life myself. Enjoy!!!
-HannahlolDobson😽

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