The Aries and Libra

A long, exhausting day..

I'm irritated, and I'm upset. I've been walking around in the heat and sun, i have a sun burn and it hurts. No one in family cares about me, so i was alone the whole fucking time. My sister ditched me and i made myself look stupid. People are very judgmental.

And, i get home and i get no messages from him.. i guess he had to work, which I'm upset about. He made a promise, and now he fucking broke it. It's fine though, i can break promises too. Or i can be a bitch tomorrow. No.. I'm not like that. I can be, but i don't like being like that.

I'm going to be sad for awhile. I can actually cry without anyone to notice. I might not go to sleep, just stare at the ceiling. I don't fucking know anymore. I'm tired.. but i don't want to go to sleep. He can go to sleep, but I'm not. I'm upset and irritated.

I wish he was here.. i want him to feel bad. Cause it's unfair. He didn't miss me at all today. Not once. He slept till twelve and then went to classes and straight to work. While i was stuck with people who don't even care about me. I'm basically invisible. I thought at least he would care about me.. but i guess I'm wrong...

I hate having emotions. I hate how easy he can mess with my emotions, make me sad, happy or upset. Damn it! I'm just probably exhausted... and I'm pissed. And i thought school only made me feel dead inside..

I'm tired of being alone.. i wish he was here, I'm tired of being nothing, I'm tired of being invisible to everyone in my family. I want my own life with him. I don't care that my mother hates him, she just doesn't want me happy.

I'm going to be alone. It's not like anyone talks to me anyways. So it doesn't fucking matter.

Love is patient... I can wait. But high school might kill me.