The Aries and Libra

I'm quite lonely..

You work all night, leaving me to be alone. I sit on the couch, letting my imagination entertain me but it only makes me sad. Tears run down my face as i think of us. I try to distract myself by drawing and playing video games, but somehow you're always on my mind.

When i go to sleep, you're still at work. I lay there and wish i was able to kiss you goodnight. But not yet love. So i lay there and cry myself to sleep. I wake up multiple times from having a nightmare.

Today, at 9:56 pm, i tell you not to go to work. That it's not the same when i fall asleep without you. That i always have nightmares. But you reply with, Jazmine I have to go to work. I love you. I wish i could talk to you. I love you Jazmine. I love you so much. If you have nightmares, message me please. I reply back at 9:58 pm, I love you so much too David.. but you don't answer your messages when you are asleep. So i stopped trying..

I quickly wiped away tears that excaped, fearing my sister or mother would see me cry. I also told you that i wouldn't get any sleep tonight, I'm serious. I will not sleep. I will wait for you tonight. No matter how late you work.

You know I'm sad David.. You know what happened this morning. I told you and you said you were here for me. I appreciate it. I'm glad i could at least rely on you.. When i told you my great grandma is dying, you helped me. I remember the last time i saw her, she doesn't even remember me.. She doesn't know who i am.. I'm sorry if i brought up memories of your grandpa.. i bet he was a great guy. I never got to meet my grandpa. He died before i was born. People blame me for his death. My sister says I'm a curse..

Don't get me wrong, i still love you, with all my heart. You are my love. You are my husband. I will wait for you. No matter how long it takes. No matter how painful it is for me. I will wait David, for you my love.