The Aries and Libra

Love is...

Love is a complicated feeling. Some confuse love for lust or desire. But love is a beautiful thing. Love is like a small seed. It needs a chance to grow: to be watered, fed and nourished. Then it can grow into something beautiful. Of course it takes time and effort but in the end it's more than worth it. That small seed can blossom into anything. Sometimes a simple daisy: strong, long lasting and simple. Or a bleeding heart: beautiful but toxic. The possibilities are endless. My love... it may have had it's up and downs, but to me it was perfect.. it was like a white rose: pure, beautiful, long lasting but had some thorns. It was perfect. It's rare to come across the love I had with my Aries. He was everything to me, both my soulmate and best friend. And nothing can make my love for him perish. Nothing can kill my blooming garden of flowers. No amount of pesticides can even weaver my endless amounts of love for him.

Yet here I am... pushed to the sidelines now. My garden of blossoming romance and love still growing as my tears nourish it. I never knew what heart break felt like it now. To lose both my lover and best friend, all at once. And I know I'll never be able to find love like this again. The feeling I felt with him, I've never felt with anyone else before. It's one of the many reasons how I know that my Aries was my soulmate.. the spark I felt when we first met. When we exchanged our first kiss, I knew he was the one. Which is why it kills me now. It hurts me, like a bucket of water slowly being poured over the burning flame.. the flame that struggles to fight on.

I don't want to give up. I want to keep fighting, to keep this love. I want to be hopeful, but with the words that have been exchanged... I feel hopeless. I feel broken. I feel the fire inside me slowly going out. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I have absolutely no motivation for anything. I want to keep fighting, but it feels like it's a fight that I'm destined to lose. What should I do?..