Apartment 207

Chapter 20

The funeral:

The service was a blur.

I heard so many stories about how great josh was. Each one was like another stab to the heart.

It's my turn to go up.

I stand and walk to the front. I can feel eyes burning on me. I turn to the sea
of black.

I'm the cause of this, the tears, the heart ache, i did all of it. I look to Josh's mom. She's staring at me blankly, there is no emotion in her eyes.

I stare into her ice cold eyes,

'I killed your baby boy.' I think to myself.

i bring my ukulele up to playing position but don't immediately start. i admire it and how truly perfect it is. I feel weak as i think of the music store, the first place we hung out.

"This song is dedicated to-"

i can't hold back the tears.

"to my best friend. i love you and thank you for saving me, even thou-"

i'm choking every on word.

"even though... i couldn't save you."

I begin singing the lyrics that used to bring me upmost happiness that are now full of sorrow.

"Wise men say.."