Won't Give Up [Book 4]

July 30th

July 30th

Hey.
It's Snotlout again.
It's been awhile since I visited. It has been hard. Visiting the one person who deserved better. It isn't fair.
I think I understand how you feel. About not having anyone left. I know that I have our friends, but u am talking about family. About not having family there for you.
Your the only family I have left other than my dad. And we were never that close. He also expected so much of me.
Guess I can see how we are all related...
I know that I shouldn't be talking. It isn't fair of to be talking about my petty problems when you may never wake up.
I hope you do. I enjoyed are cousin bonding time.
I forgot to mention the last time I visited and wrote a letter to you, it cut off.
The reason why isn't as important anymore. It was dealt with.
But what I was going too say is that...
I may not be the best at expressing my feelings...
Many because of my pride.
But... um... I...
Why is this so hard?
Is it because I never had that heart to tell you before? Because I was so mean to you before that I never thought how it effected you?
I wish I could change what I did.
But I know I can't.
But I wanted to say that...
I may not show it, like at all...
But I really do care about you.
I just wish I could say it to you in person.

Please wake up baby cousin...
Snotlout