Kissed By A Demon (Boyxboy)

Awaken

I want to give a big thanks to an6543 for helping me come up with an idea for the back story. You're awesome for doing that, thank you so much.

-Andri

I wake up lightheaded. I feel empty inside now that my demon is suppressed. Everything around me feels so hurtful all the things that once seemed beautiful seem to make me feel sick now. I just want to die, can that be arranged? I will beg if that is what it takes for my suffering to end. I really wish Chris had never come into my life, then I wouldn't have had to feel pure happiness and have it ripped from me. Why did he have to come in and ruin my life? I was perfectly fine with just waiting to take my own life and getting beat by my so called "father". Things were better that way...

As I am thinking about this I hear a voice say "Glad to see you're finally awake." I look to see that the voice belongs to Jackson and I quickly look away from him. I hear him sigh and he says "Look, I know you're hurting right now. But I was trying to do what was best for everyone, your demon form is dangerous. Demon forms should never have complete control over their host, it is way too dangerous for them to be in control. They have no thought for anyone but themselves and would kill whoever decided to stand in their way. Just be glad that the demon was dealt with before anyone was hurt."

I begin crying and ask "Why does it have to be like this? I don't want to live anymore, please just kill me. Everything hurts and I just want it all to go away, and if someone kills me I can keep my promise of not killing myself. Please just make my suffering end, please Jackson make it stop." Jackson pulls me into a hug and says "I will not end you Jesse. You still have so much to live for, it might hurt right now but please don't give up. You have people who still love and care about you and just because things seem really bad right now, it doesn't mean something good can't still happen. Believe me, I speak from experience."

I hesitantly return his hug and ask "What do you mean?" Jackson pulls back from the hug and gives me a soft smile before saying "I know your whole story Jesse and mine is a bit similar in some ways except I had a brother to help me when my dad would start the beatings. Sage is that brother and I have just recently gotten to know him again after 11 years, we were separated when I was only 9 years old and Sage was 12. We are only half brothers because our father couldn't keep it in his pants and when our mothers found they left him and us with him."

Jackson takes a deep breath before he continues to talk "When they left he started to beat us because he said we looked just like our good for nothing mothers and since he couldn't hit them he'd hit us instead. The fates ended up finding out what he was doing and they killed him. They then separated Sage and me. I was to go to heaven while Sage to hell. This is because Sage was a full demon and I was half a demon and half angel. They took me to heaven and used me for my power until I finally had enough and left to Earth saying I would protect our kind and others with supernatural powers on Earth so humans and others could not find them."

I stare at Jackson and ask "Why didn't you just give up?" Jackson slightly smiles and says "I had thought about it many times, but I would always tell myself not to because there had to be at least one person who would care if I was gone and they would be sad if I was gone. I was right of course because then I met Dasher and he said he would stand by my side no matter what and he'd help me to find my brother. In the end he did, once you guys broke out of hell he sensed Sage's presence and I tracked you guys down and told Sage you were all welcome to stay here we also found Alice for him."

Jackson gives me a full blown smile and says "Things don't always work out the way you want them to but you can still have a chance to fix them or even move on if you are willing to let yourself." I smile back at him and say "I am willing to try if it means this pain will get even a little better. I am glad I met you Jackson, you're a really good person. Want to be my friend? I think I am going to need you a lot on this journey to get my fucked up life somewhat on track." Jackson laughs a little and says "Of course we can be friends and don't rush yourself to get your life on track, even if you feel just a little better that is good." I just nod my head in agreement and then say "I promise I won't rush anything."