Lucky Boy [Hamilton AU] (Lams)

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So, Laf and I spent a good three hours awkwardly walking around the men's section of all the stores they loved and had me carry about five articles of clothing at once. I didn't buy anything, even the things that Laf said looked really nice on me. It was the last store we went to that I really liked. They had dress shirts and jeans galore. I waded through everything and enjoyed spending time there. I bought a few polos, some button downs, a couple pairs of jeans and a nice pair of pants. I liked buying new clothes, as dumb as it sounded, especially these kind of clothes, because it filled me with some sort of satisfaction that I couldn't really explain.

I grabbed a couple of packages of boxers and Laf looked at me funny. They took them back and put them up. Instead they grabbed a couple packages of smaller sized boxers and handed them to me. I turned red. I paid for all my clothes and Laf and I went to go eat.

As we sat, I shifted uncomfortably constantly. "What's the matter?" they asked. I sighed and shrugged, poking around my plate. "John, talk to me."

"I hate this. But I know you can't do anything to help."

The rest of the day was quite awkward. I had to deal with the embarrassment of walking into a CVS and grabbing a package of tampons. "Have a nice day ma'am," the clerk winked at me. I groaned and walked out to the car, tossing them to the backseat.

"John, please. Transition is never easy but don't feel so down. Why don't we have Hercules come over and we can just have a guys day in?" I know they were trying to help, but I felt kind of pathetic. But I was in no real position to turn them down.

"Sure why not." I put my hands in my pockets and felt a paper. I pulled out the napkin from last night and sighed. "C-Can I... Can I invite Alexander?"

"Wh- Oh Alexander, huh? Of course. It's your apartment too, you know." I smiled and took out my phone.

To: Alex
hey, it's john laurens from last night

From: Alex
oh hey john

To: Alex
so my friends and i are going to be watching a movie. care to join?

From: Alex
sure thing. address?

So I gave him the address and he said he's see me later. I smiled at my phone, then at Laf. "Thanks Laf, and thanks for dealing with me today, I know I can be real pain in the ass when... well you know.."

"Don't sweat it mon amie," they said, "Anything for a friend."

So we drove back to the apartment and I took a nap and then looked over more of my history notes. Around 7 o'clock, there was a knock at the door, probably Hercules. "I'll get it," I called back. I walked to the door with my journal in hand. I opened the door, without really paying attention. "Hey Herc," I muttered, not looking up. I just flipped the page and waited for him to say something back. There was just a soft laugh. That laugh.

I looked up and turned red. "A-Alex, I... I thought-"

"That I was 'Herc'," he laughed, "What'cha got there?"

"Um... uh, n-notes," I say, turning to show him but I just ended up dropping them. "Oh! Uh... wow, I'm sorry. Um..." I awkwardly bent down to pick up the journal and papers that slipped out. Alex helped. Not really, but he tried to. "I have a test tomorrow." Alex chuckled, handing me a page. I smiled, and couldn't stop smiling.

There was another knock. I opened it, and saw Hercules. Thank God. He came in and hugged me. Then he and Lafayette properly introduced themselves to Alex. I just dreamily watched from the doorframe. God, he was so cute.

Anyway, we were just watching Ghostbusters and Jaws and other movies like them. I liked this movies, really, but I was just so out of it that I couldn't enjoy them. My stomach constantly grumbled even though I wasn't hungry. And I became overwhelmed with nausea. Suddenly I couldn't hold back anymore and I bolted to the bathroom, slamming and quickly locking the door behind me. I barely got the toilet seat up in time. I threw up and groaned in pain. God, I hated this.

I leaned against the wall and held onto the toilet like a teddy bear. There was a soft knock on the door. Panicked, thinking it was Alex, I grabbed the box of tampons and hid them in the stacks of unused towels that were oh so conveniently placed in the bathroom for my protection. I stood on shaky legs and unlocked the door. It was Alex. I sighed sadly. "A-Alex, I'm so sorry. I-I... I don't know what happened. I'm sorry I ruined your night," I mumbled. He put his hand on my shoulder.

"Hey, it's okay John. You didn't ruin my night. But are you doing okay?" he asked. I just nodded and flushed the toilet. I grabbed at my stomach. "Let me grab you a water bottle." I just nodded. I didn't feel like saying anything. Alex helped me to my room and grabbed my history journal. He handed me the water bottle. "May I?" he asked, gesturing to the desk seat. I scooted over on the bed and patted the spot next to me. He sat on the edge and faced me. "So what does everyone else do?"

"Hercules is a fashion major and Lafayette is an art major." My voice was quiet, my throat burned from the vomit. Alex flipped through the pages.

"You take good notes," he said.

"Uh, thanks."

Alex continued flipping through my notes and I sat up and started to stand. "Where are you going?" he asked.

"I..uh, I have a really bad headache so I'm going to take some painkillers."

"No, uh, you just stay laying down. I'll get them. O-Or I'll get Lafayette to get them." He put his hand on my shoulder and gently pushed me back onto the bed. He gave me a small smile and left the room. He came back a few seconds later with two painkillers and a bottle of water. He handed them to me and I took the pills. I laid back, staring at my ceiling. Today was just a mess. Nothing was going the way I had wanted. It was just a mess. I gave Alexander a soft smile. "Can I hug you?" he asked. It caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting that, nor was I expecting him to ask.

I nodded and we hugged. It was a nice hug. I smiled as he sat back and looked at me. "Well," he started, "I'll see you around. It's getting late, I should be getting back to my dorm." I nodded. "I hope you feel better."

He gave me another short hug and walked out of my room. I had this permanent smile on my face. He closed the door to my room and shortly after, I heard the soft sound of the apartment door closing.

[agh this was really bad. sorry. but it's just a filler. it'll get better? i hope so anyway. thanks for reading. - k i t]