I hate you, but I love you

Chapter 2; Past Lives

Alucard's POV

As I walk to the nearest chair and sat in it and watched Clarisse sleep, all of the memories of her, us, and her coven came floating back to my mind. Memories of how she was so loving, and caring to me and to them. Of how we were so close and how I destroyed everything that she touched and how she ran away form me. Of how that look of angry, and vengeance look in her eyes would never go away. The first time I ever saw her so peaceful was the night we first met.

It was Vince Italy, 1872 at the home of Duke Lucas Waterston. He and I had been close friend back in my days as a king. He made his name famous when he married the rich daughter of Earl Johnston Bruckheimer. He invited me to his home when I was passing by his town. I gladly accepted his invitation to his home. I remember thinking that he hasn't change a bit since the last time I saw him. His second wife, Lizzy Waterston, was beautiful, but not as beautiful as her. I was roaming the halls of their newly built summer home, when I heard someone in the study. From the smell, it was Lucas, but he was not with his wife.

When I came across his study, there was a creak in the door, so I peaked in to find him with her. She was, by far, the most magnificent creature I had ever seen in my undead life. I actually felt jealous of him for having her as a mistress. Those glorious purple eyes, perfect, soft lips, that sexy, venomous body that lay under that dark red lingerie she was wearing under her navy blue dress. As I kept staring at her, I didn't notice that my friend held a dagger in his hand until he raise it to stab her in the back.

I acted quickly, I separated them by pushing my friend further into his seat, dropping his dagger under his desk, and I push her on the other side of the room. Unfortunately, I push her so hard that I knocked her consciousness. My friend, Lucas, just sat in his chair, laughing. I didn't know what came over me; he and I use to slaughter young women practically everyday, but this one. Something in me just couldn't let her die at the hands of this..monster. "I see now," he said, "you also have been captive by her beauty as well. She is quite something, by far nothing like us. Although, it seems that she is, indeed, one of us. "As I check to see if she had any cuts, or bruises; they started to heal. She opened her eyes and I saw purple and red. "Who are you?" I asked. She looked at me like I was some kind of angle, then she looked back at Lucas. She then stood up, and out of nowhere pulled out a gun and shoots him, almost pierce through his heart.

That was the first time I ever been in shock by a kill, right in front of my eyes. She smiled and said," You might not remember me, probably because when we first met, I was in rags and had brown hair and brown eyes. It was in Paris, 1513, you left me for dead, or so you thought." She giggled out. I turned to my friend who was still bleeding on the floor, who looked like he had committed the ultimate crime. He extended his hand out to me as if I would save his life again, but not this time. I stood back from them and sat in a chair, but not before I played some classical music to drown out the gun. They both looked at me like I was some kind of madman, then my friend look at me for mercy, and whispered, "Vladimir, I did no such thing, you know me. I always leave my dead, dead. I would never turn a young woman unless it was consensual." He said as he was limping towards me. I crack a smile," Your right Lucas, I do know you, and I also know when you are lying through your teeth. In case you forgotten, if someone is turned into a vampire, and you are their sire, they will carried the same sent as you do. Their very essence is you, until your death. It's time to take responsibility for what you've have done to this poor young lady." I turn to her smiling and putting her gun away, she then walk up to him and grabbed him by his neck. "I've spend every night looking for the monster who turn me into this thing, and now, I'm going to make you regret it" she said. She then bit into his neck, he screamed, and scratch, but she wouldn't let him go. Blood was everywhere, from all his struggling. In a way it turn me on, the way her eyes light up as she drank, and drank his blood. How she threw his now dead, permanent corpse, and how her whole body felt relief, after all these years, and centuries. She was magnificent, even with her body covered in blood.

"After all these years, I'm free, finally free, and it feels so wonderful." She thought. She stood their, in silence for a moment, until she turned to me. "You must have really hated him, for letting him die like this, "she chuckled," who are you? I like to thank the man who helped me find peace." I smiled and walked up to her until I was face to face with her. "My name, little girl, is Alucard. What is yours?" I replied. "First of all, don't' call me little girl, I may be short but I can kick your ass up and down this room. Second, the name is Clarisse, Clarisse Blackfire. "She smiled as she open the window. I was just about to ask more questions when she jump out the window. I scan for her on the ground but she was gone. All that was left was a black and white feather. "Until we meet again, little helper."

Looking back now, she still has that fire in her eyes, and I still want her. All these years believing that she was dead, or forever lost, within my reach. Now that she here, looking at her, touching her, and kissing her. I prey to Lucifer, that all hope is not lost for me to have her again. "You will be mine again, and this time I will make you my queen." I whispered in her ear, and kiss her on her head. "Sweet dreams, my queen."

Clarissa's POV

(Dream)

Chaos, all was noting but chaos. Everything that I loved and put my heart into was burning. All because of him, I trusted him, I loved him, I gave him my all, and he just stomped on it. With that arrogant smile on his face, he comes to me with nothing, but blood and the skulls of my family. "Now, you are forever mine, and nothing, or no one will get in the way of us." He said in a deep, demonic voice. He has destroyed everything, and gave me nothing to make up for it. He hunts me in my dreams, and takes away my sanity. So why, do I still love him?

(Dream End)

I woke up to Walter, shaking me to wake up with a worried face. I touched my face to find one sliver and blood tear on my face. "Oh sorry, I said, "it's my actually tears, when I was created I used to cry blood tears, but when I became older I started to cry sliver." He just simply smiled and replied, "I know Ms. Blackfire, we all know. We took the liberty of checking up on you and your friends." "We, I thought, we includes Alucard." My thoughts of worry were interrupted by Walter's chuckled, "No need to fear, none of them were hurt, we just questioned the ones we could find. Although, none of them wish to talk about you, it's as if they were hiding you."

I smiled, knowing any of them, or all of them, they would rather die than give up their own mother. As I was about to replied to Walter, my doors were immediately open. Alucard walked in as I stood from the bed, Walter then exit the room, leaving me and him, alone. "Hello, and sorry I must decline your job opportunity, but I have to get back to my business. I said as began to pack. "I didn't harm any of them, if that's what you're so worried about. "He said as sat in a chair," Stay, let me explain myself before you run off again. ""For what, so you can make me fall for you again, and destroy everything that I love again." I chuckled.

I was then pinned to the wall by him holding me by my throat. "How long, are you going to hold that against me?! "he screamed. "As long as you're in this world, I started; I will never forgive you for what you've done to me, to them, to my kingdom, and to my heart! Let me go!" He didn't, instead he smash his lips against mine, begging for entrance. I refuge; he then threw me on the bed, and laid on top of me. He kissed me again, this time he caught me off guard. He then started to rub and grind against me; I let out a small gasp, which led to a moan. "Do you feel that, do you know how much I want you? You are so beautiful; I want you all to myself. I see the way other men look at you, and it makes me sick." he growled. He then pulled me into a passionate kiss, and embrace. As he began to kiss downward on my body, I couldn't help but bite my lip, trying to suppress that insane desire to rip his clothes off.

Then all the memories of my family, friends, allies, and their dead, impaled bodies flashed before my very eyes. I then push Alucard of me, and ran out of the room to the entrance door, and fled from the manor. I morphed into a white wolf, and began to run at maximum speed. By the time I got back to Beijing China, I could still hear his battle. "Clarissa!", he screamed.