I hate you, but I love you

Chapter 9 Secret Unfold Part 2

Clarissa's POV

"Uh I hate him!" I screamed as I threw a chair to the wall. "That bastard, always thinks he's better than the rest of us, when really he is nothing but a slimy, egotist, hatful piece of shit!" I yelled as I made my way to the bed and fell onto the covers along with Seras and Wendy laying next to me. "He isn't so bad once you get to know him, I'm sure he just does it to impress you?" Seras said in a questionable tone. "It's completely obvious," Wendy cut in, "He knows that if he tries to be nice and creepy like before, that you won't talk to him, so he acts like a asswhole to Seras and you just so you can tail him off, because that's the only way you'll talk to him." Sears looked at her in shock while I just chuckled. "The best part about being invisible, is that you tend to see everything." She stated.

About an hour of talking, badmouthing Alucard, and bottles of blood wine latter, Seras and Wendy went to bed while I roamed around Ms. Integra's home. I somehow found my way to the training room, so I began to try out some of the weapons. A few minutes later, I heard footsteps coming from the stairs that lead down to the training room. "It's not like you to used stairs Alucard, What, have you grown soft?" I asked. All I heard was a chuckle before hearing," Funny, I remember you complaining a lot about me fazing through walls." "What do you want? I'm busy." I said. "The same thing I wanted since the day I brought you here, to talk like two civilized adults." he said. "Well that not what your intension were when you first saw me." I laughed as a place one of the guns back to its original place. I was about to make my way to the door when, he grabbed my arm and slam me into the wall, blocking me with his body.

"It's been centuries since I saw you, of course that would be anyone's reaction when there mate is alive, and well. I miss you, and I want you and only you; I did what I had to do to protect you." he said, with.....tears in his eyes. He started to slowly wrap his arms around me, holding me close. " I would never hurt Lucas, he was my son too, like me he wanted to protect you. You don't think that I wake up everyday, heartbroken because of his death, and don't you dare lie to me, because I know you better than you know yourself." As he started to talk about Lucas, I tried to break free, but in the end I cried so hard that for a second the room shook. I tried to break free again by scratching, and kicking, and shouting, "I hate you, I hate you! It should have been you who died not him! He was only a child and you kill him! How could you?!" Now matter how hard I fought, or screamed, he still did not let go. Soon our little cry fest came to an end, he carried me down to his room where we sat on his throne (well me on his lap) and began to explain his verson of what happen on the worst days of my undead life.

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Alucard's POV

After for what seem like forever you finally let me accompany you to your coven. I remember you being so nervous that you couldn't look me in the eye all week when we made the trip. I never seen you nervous, I was so cute. When we finally made it, we were greeted by Lucas and he immediately ask me for a piggy back ride, its funny really, as old as he was, he still acted like a little child. Going deeper in I saw how the older ones greeted you with kindness and respect and doing so with me. The younger one, well they treated you like a mother should be treated, as for me well they just started and ask me a lot of questions, I think that was first time that I actually felt uncomfortable around other vampires. Soon we made our way to the ballroom where more of your children were waiting to greet us. All night, they were dancing, drinking, laughing, and cheering for you, for they were glad to have their mother back unharmed. Eventually everyone went to bed, and we made our way to, your room. I never felt so nervous in my undead life. Then again, at that time, I've always found myself being so nervous around you. I didn't know what sort of spell you put on me, but I never wanted to end. I never wanted to leave you. I've never felt like this before, looking back now I've never felt this way about Mina, or any other woman but you. You made me want to become, human again.